Stay With Me (boyXboy)

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*Lucas*

I woke up to Jax lying next to me, looking so peaceful. As much as I wanted to deny my feelings for him, I needed him more than ever. I loved him too much to let him go. So I was going to leave Maisie for him. I had to I had no other way of being happy.

Right then as I was thinking about picking up the phone to tell her it's over, I know I'm an Arsehole. Maisie called. I reluctantly answer. It was too early for the weird ass spooky shit. Before I could even get a 'hello' out she was in tears telling me that she is pregnant. I jolted up, waking Jax in the process. There was no way that I could leave her now. "Give me a day or two to think" I mutter before hanging up the phone. Well that is me, unhappy for the rest of my life... I can't let this kid grow up without its dad.

I look over at Jaxon, groggily rubbing his eyes, trying to wake up fully. I broke down. The night before made me realise how much I missed him. Maisie wasn't what I wanted. I wanted to keep my promise to Nate, the promise Jax and I made together.

I realised a short while later that Jaxon was holding me. I didn't want to let go. I shrugged Jaxon off of me and I made no attempt to explain, or to stop him from scurrying out of the door. I needed to think.

Once Jax was gone I sluggishly pulled myself out of bed and forced myself to eat whatever left overs I had in the fridge. I didn't want to face up to the facts of reality, not really. The night before I was in bed with a male, and the next morning my girlfriend (who I just cheated on and feel awful about) just told me I'm going to be a dad.

I mean yeah I wanted kids but, we are never that careless, plus I didn't want them this soon. But it's happened and there's no turning back now. And all I wanted was to be on my own and think it through in silence, but it seems that the Karma Gods were against me. WHAT DID I DO?! You know besides get a girl pregnant out of wedlock.

I open my door after realising that the persistent pounding would not stop unless I answer. To my surprise it was one of the friends I had made since losing contact with Jax, Mason.

"Look Mason I'm really not in the mood today" and before I could explain what I was told. He said something suspicious. "Nat told me last night man, thought I would come see how you doing?" I looked at him, why would Natalie tell him before me? They hardly ever spoke while I as in the room. But I shrugged, thinking I could forget the thoughts that were consuming my mind.

Eventually my overwhelming speculation got the better of me. "Why did she tell you before me Mason?" I ask not even attempting to hide the suspicion in my voice.

He stuttered over a few words before coming clean. "W-well the baby could be mine."