The wrong path

I know

After our shower we got dressed and he said "we do need to talk about this". "I agree" I said then sat on the bed. He sat next to me and said "I know I act like an ass and I know I'm rough with you and I'm really trying to stop" he said. "You told me some really hurtful things" I said. "I didn't mean what I said about letting Leonardo have you" he said. "Then why say it" I asked. "I was angry at you for talking to Lucas still because I thought maybe you'd understand but I guess not" he said with a sigh. "Understand what Matteo" I asked. "How I feel about you" he replied. "How would I know how you feel if you never say anything and when you do it's always something rude" I said. "I don't know I just thought you'd catch on and when I found out you were talking to him I couldn't stand the thought of you with him  I just didn't know how to tell you" he said. "You need to be honest and just tell me things because when you lash out on me it confuses me and just makes me scared all over again" I said. "You don't need to be scared of me I'm the one who wants to and will always protect you" he said. "Let's not forget you also said you only wanted me because I was a virgin and that now I'm nothing special" I said. "I don't know why I said that I'm so sorry that's so fucking far from the truth" he said then grabbed my hand. "And the last thing" I said. "What is it" he asked. "The girl you were with last night you slept with her in the living room and you didn't even care if I knew or not" I said. "I'm going to be honest" he said. "Okay" I responded. "I knew you would hear us that's why I did it" he said. "Why would you do that" I asked. "Because I thought if you saw what a piece of shit I am you'd never think of me as a good person again and if you kept it all friendly I thought maybe I could forget about you" he said. "Matteo I'm not hard to forget just stop thinking about me so much" I said. He grabbed my face then said "when I first saw you at Blonsha I was thinking with my dick like always. I wanted to fuck you that's it then when I saw you again I wanted it even more. I never planned on doing anything about it once I realized you had a boyfriend but then I saw you with Leonardo. So when he tried to touch you I instantly got protective over you and like I said I thought it was because of the way you look but then once you and I started talking more and spending time together I started to feel differently about you. I couldn't get you out my head. So when we finally had sex I thought the feelings would stop but they only grew and I wanted you to see but you don't" he said with a sigh. "See what" I asked. He looked at me like he was debating on saying something. "That I've fallen in love with you" he said in a whisper. "Matteo we haven't even known each other for a month" I said.

"I know" he said. "But I do" he said with a smile. Before I could say anything else he kissed me. We made out for god knows how long before we both fell asleep.