The wrong path

The letter

It's been 4 weeks since everything happend. For the first two weeks I didn't eat much and all I really did was cry. Sherry forced me to go shopping and Lucas and I went on a few dates. I was starting to feel normal again and Matteo was starting to feel like a distant memory. If I try hard enough I think I can convince myself it was only a dream. It's Sunday and Lucas and I just got done watching the notebook. He kissed me and I kissed him back. I can't help but instantly think of Matteo. "I need to go to the bathroom" I said. Diego dropped my things off the day after I left. He rang the doorbell then left just like I asked. I haven't unpacked all of it yet mostly because when I do it brings everything back. I looked in the mirror and I realized I needed mascara badly. I haven't worn makeup since the day I left. My makeup bag is still in one of my suitcases so I went back in my room and opened it. That's when I saw the note.

"Daisy I know you hate me and I don't blame you. I know you most likely won't read this and that's okay but I need to tell you. You need to know that even though I did lie it doesn't change the feelings I had and will always have for you. Nothing about me loving you was a lie. I love you more than anything and while our time together was short it was still the best time of my life. I'm going back to Italy in 4 weeks so you won't have to worry about me anymore. You need to know that you mean more to me than I can explain. More than I can even fathom really. It was real and I felt ever moment of it. You made me feel wanted and loved. You made me feel alive. It may have just been a fling to you but for me it was so much more. I don't deserve you and I never did. I like to think love leaves exactly when it should and stays when it should. I'm sorry this is the way it became. I miss you and I'm sorry for everything I caused. I'll love you forever. - Matteo