Noah & Navid

Chapter 66 - Noah Gets To Drive

"I was wrong for this. Was my mistake. My sweet princess is right to have anger," Navid whispered.

"I can't be with someone who doesn't respect me. I can't marry you... I can't!" I shook my head and felt a tear leak out of my right eye. 

I sniffed it back.

"Baby you don't mean this. Please don't say this. I'm sorry, my love. I will go beat up Luis for you if is what you need," Navid looked desperate and he was on the edge of tears too.

"It's not about Luis. This is what we do. You insist on being the daddy and need to control everything I do, even trying to get me to apologize when someone is mean to me! You want a quiet little boy who just sits at your side waiting for instruction. I don't want to be stuck as a teenager the rest of my life. I can't do this. I won't! I can't marry you," I argued. 

It felt like someone stabbed me in the stomach as I said that. I felt tears rushing out of me as I caught my breath.

"You don't mean this, Noah. You are hurt and is my fault. We will marry. I already tell my parents! I change everything because I love you. I change my life for you because I want no one else. You are my love! You can't say thing like this," Navid said.

"I should just be grateful that a man like you could lower himself to love a boy like me? That's wrong, dude! You had a ton of boys before me. You like guys and that needed to come out at some point. It's who you are." Every word was just rushing out so quickly.

"I was so lost before I meet you. You gave me meaning and vision for future that I never think possible... And you are only one I ever love. You are only boy I ever see my life with! Why you will say hurtful thing like this? How we get to here? I plan nice day for you and how we end up here fighting like this? I don't understand. I mess this up for us," Navid sat on the bed and sighed. 

He looked at me with those helpless eyes that said he needed me, he'd do anything to make this better.

"That guy was just SO rude. He kept talking about your dick and saying I needed to get in better shape if I wanted to keep a guy like you. He said you would have much hotter guys throwing themselves at you and I wouldn't stand a chance. He was drooling all over you and being mean to me and then you wanted me to apologize and... and..." I walked away from him and looked at the wall. 

I had to get a hold of myself. I was getting choked up.

"Baby," he sighed from the bed.

"I am NOT going to cry in front of you. I'm not a little kid," I sniffled. 

I couldn't tell him I was a grown up and then melt down in tears in front of him.

"You can always cry in front of me... and I cry in front of you. We are safety for each other... or we should be... you did not feel safe with me today," Navid said and came up behind me. 

He put his hand on my shoulder but I jerked away.

"I'm sorry, Noah. I was wrong. I was so wrong to not listen to you. I was wrong to not stick up for you. I'm sorry... I get caught up in my business sometime. You know client can say mean things to me too sometimes from ignorance. They make fun of my accent or one even ask me what I think about terrorism. They make sex jokes for my body as if I am there to serve them. They know I provide service for them so they think they can treat me as they please," Navid said.

"For real? That's fucked up! Why do you put up with that?" I turned to him and saw his sad eyes.

"Is life, Noah. Life is not for fair and right like this. I stand it though. I stand for this because all I can think is 'Hey how nice it will be to have money for my Noah and pay my bills and buy pretty something for my princess and afford to have nice wedding with my love?' I stand for it because I want that you never worry for anything. I take it for us because it mean success and safety for my love. Remember? I am hard shell that protects my little pearl name Noah," Navid said and put his hand on my cheek.