My Nana and Papa we are probably my guardian angels. They are such great people. He spent a lot of time with me when I was a kid and have done a lot for all of the family. This obviously is a blessing to me in the world. It is a huge blow to my pride and self-esteem. I feel like the biggest loser when I see how good they are and how hard they tried to love me. My mom and pops and ants in uncles are in this category too. So I should have turned out better. But instead I feel like a monster for still fucking up when I know that they are getting older my time in prison has rob them of their family member. Just thinking of the time my Nana let me drive or Daytona reminds me of how cool are you just how much they love the family. If it weren't for them I might've turned out like a complete psycho vans. They are whole attitude towards me was to love me and be there for me no matter how many times I fell. That is way because me so deeply that I continuously flush my life down the toilet. You figure somebody who's been lucky enough to have grandparents like that would straighten his life out. And it kills me that they are still proud of me no matter how many times I mess up. They know where my heart is and see a lot of the things art fair at all. The curveballs life keeps throwing Abby makes it pretty apparent to me that the devil made me do it. So why can't I have the same tolerance of myself? I would punch the jail mirror because I wish that I could beat my own ass like i beat that brick wall in my jail and prison cells. I do have a good heart and love my kids and I tried to pay it forward in life. I have talents and I am unique and I'm trying to use them to make my life worthwhile. I am a hard worker and with my all into be the best I can be. And I try to live life doing Karmatic deeds. Yeah I do fall off from time to time. Even then my worst deeds are more self damaging than anything. Still sometimes I'm on the fence of thinking I've done too many bad things and sometimes I feel like I've been over punished for the little things I've got a quote for. And I sometimes am self-conscious that I live a legend that is to over inflated. Trying to change my life awakens this deep seeded team and that tells me I should always do what I want when I want. And I should never grow up and conform. That if I can form the man has one. Even if I grow up I can never become part of the society because these lames make me sick, these sheeple are comical, and Freedom bitch. FREEDOM!!!!
Look by the time I wound up Group homes I was getting the most demerit points because I refuse. I mean I refused everything I kicked it off about any little thing that the people try to make me do. I know how to resist if I did not have a criminal record like I do I would go demonstrate protest all of it. In my familyThey never had that type of disobedience before. Sure we were a family of rebel's free thinkers and troublemakers. But I was on a whole Nother level.
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Cerita PendekA funlovin criminal taking a ride down memory lane or possibly just swallowed up by the rabbit hole. Gun to his head, sweat on the brow he's trying to remember if he washed his dick or not. Don't nobody want to die with stank dick. He can see the...
