It's Not Meant To End (WayHaught Fanfic)

Epilogue

"I was first diagnosed when I was eleven years old," Nicole continued talking, noticing the thick atmosphere around the room. "I had a surgery on my colon then I had my first chemo. I know how hard and scary it was the first time so I also felt how scared Kate was. I accompanied her through it. I lost my hair during the process...," Nicole paused for a moment as eyes were on her. "On my second and my latest third chemo, I didn't lose any hair. Thank God." This earned a chuckle from the circle. "But I did have frostbite." Nicole took off her gloves and flashed her darkened fingers.

"I... I had been very depressed these past few months... I used to get angry at the world for giving me this thing... That it was unfair to give someone a life knowing one day you won't be even living in it anymore. And it sucked big thing... for there were so many things I still wanted to do in this world." There was a beat as Nicole stared shortly at Waverly. "And there were people I wanted to spend the rest of my life with... And even that, I couldn't do because I was scared to leave them... So I have been shutting myself off and away from the real world. I know that was wrong, but it was better than hurting more people along the way.

"You only live once. That's literally true to everybody... The thing is, with cancer, you only have a short life. So you try to live your life without expectations from any, in that way, you can leave the world peacefully... It's just my opinion, anyway. I just hate leaving the people I love and wonder if they'd be able to live the same without me."

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Waverly was already waiting outside Nicole's house when Nicole arrived. After the session, the redhead had been avoiding the brunette, talking to Kate or the Pastor just to bid time, until Waverly had to leave the place to give her father a ride home.

When Nicole approached Waverly, Waverly abruptly stood and hissed at her. "Is that what you've been trying to tell me? Is that why you're holding back and keep on pushing me away?"

The redhead stared at her teary eyes when she answered, "Yes."

Waverly looked away as she bit her lower lip. Nicole could tell she was trying not to break down and cry. Then she glared at Nicole as she pointed a finger at her. "You are so unfair, Nicole!"

Nicole sighed. "Wave, you don't have to-"

"I loved you, Nicole!" Waverly exclaimed, tears now rolling down her cheeks. "I still love you... I have never loved anyone the way that I have loved you. I love you so much that it hurts you keep on pushing me away for no valid reason. It's like you never wanted me-"

"I have always wanted you, Waves," Nicole cut her off, leaning closer. "I love you too, so much that it hurts I couldn't do anything about it. You don't deserve to be with someone like me, Wave. I'm like a candle held upside down, melting faster than other candles."

Waverly leaned closer as she hugged the redhead. Nicole hugged her back, missing the warmth exuding from the brunette's body. The redhead cried together with the brunette. After a moment, Waverly pulled away as she cupped Nicole's face with her hands. "Please let me love you, Nicole... I don't care if you have cancer... Well, of course I care so much, but I don't care if you're a candle held upside down. I am willing to be burned."

"I don't want to hurt you-"

Waverly cut her off by slamming her mouth against Nicole's. The kiss wasn't long nor quick but it ignited something to the both of them. "You can't decide for me and think for my wellbeing. I love you and I choose to be with you no matter what the circumstances are. I love you and everything about you... Please... let me love you."