The Heart Wants What It Wants ➳ Harlena

|Chapter 27 : Depressed.|

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Chapter 27 : Depressed.

Dear journal,

I’ve been depressed. I can’t stop thinking about harry. He got this affect on me which made me wanted to be always near or with him . . . Attach to him. I go to school. But i’ve been avoiding everyone. Even gracie and my grandma. My grandma is worried about me. I heard her conversation with my uncle and her friends a couple of days ago, that she wanted to sign me into a rehab. I gasp quietly when i heard that.

I really can’t stop thinking about him. I felt like i wanted to die so i won’t feel this broken heart again. But then i finally realize something, why is this so hurt? Why? Because it’s real. Love is not fake. Love is not blind. I am blind. Because i’ve been lied to and fooled, and i just notice it.
I’ve been cutting. Taking pills and just . . . Wished that i could just die and forget about all this things. I tried to contact michael . . . I tried, but he never answer. I guess he did, mean the words that just come out of his mouth. He won’t be there for me because of how stubborn i was.

I guess i should live this life now. And try to carry on.

#Muchlove
Selena, xo.

Selena sighed scrunching her nose, she’s been doing that whenever three seconds or minute passed by. Maybe because the drugs, and pills that she’s taking. She’s been doing drugs and cutting her self. She wished that she could just sleep, and never wakes up.

She’s been depressed.

Her grandma tries to help her but she just pushed her away. Her friends ignore her. Little did she know that michael still care for her, but, he’s just strongly dislike her at the moment because how stubborn she is. I know it’s wrong for michael feeling that way, because he is her best friend since as long as he can remember. He’s been supporting her. But this time, he gave up. Waving a white flag.

Harry is been depressed too. He killed people. He wants to live his normal life back. “Selena, what have you done to me?” He thought. He can’t think straight. Whenever he does something, selena’s face and voice flashed in his mind. Harry’s friend try to cheer him up with girls, drugs, and money, but they didn’t suceed.

Harry loves her.

But at the same time, he still have a feelings for brianna.

Brianna was his first love. He was madly, and deeply in love with her. But brianna gave up. Waving a white flag to harry.

Harry was never been this depressed. The last time he got depressed was because brianna leaves him.

Selena’s grandma was concern about her grand-daughter lifes. Her grand-daughter social lifes. And love life. Her grandma thinking that her grand-daughter needs help. By signing in to a rehab. But she’s still thinking about it. She’s been bringing this topic to her friends, her friends persuade her that her grand-daughter, indeed need a help from a psychiatrist.

“Selena, honey, can you please come out from your room and eat your dinner?” Her grandma said, from the closed—Bed room—Door.

“No thanks grandma, i’m not hungry.” She answered with a sniffed. Her grandma sigh and walk down the hall to reach her room.

Selena turn off her t.v and decided to get some sleep since tomorrow she have school. Her final day of school though, because she will have a christmas break. She’s not looking forward to christmas though. Because it’ll remind her of her friends. They used to celebrate christmas together.

She turn off her lights in her room and try to fall into the darkness world.

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Morning came by pretty fast, selena was at school and her grandma was in the house just cleaning somethings. Vacuuming the floor that covers with a carper.

While she was pushing the vacuum back and forth inside selena’s room—She’s cleaning her room—She look under her bed and saw a brown—Medium Sized—Box. She look confused, she take out the box, turning off the vacuum before opening it. She gasp.

She just found out that her grand-daughter is using drugs.

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QOTD : Delena or taylena?
A : Honestly, i like delena more than taylena. I don't really like taylor though—But i respect her, don't worry i don't hate her :)—I ship delena more than taylena it's because delena is been best friends since as long as they remember. But now, they are seperate :( But i really wish demi and selena are friends again though so yeah heheh :D

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