The Heart Wants What It Wants ➳ Harlena

Chapter 40 : Broken Strings.

It’s amazing how someone can break your heart and you still love them with every broken piece of it ~Anonymous

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Chapter 40 : Broken Strings.

Entering the school building as usual, everybody is staring at me like i’m some kind if Zombie. I have bags under my eyes, my cheeks flushed, my lips puffed. I’m exhausted. I can’t sleep.

I’ve been trying to take the pills that my doctor gave me to calm my depression and stuff, but it’s not working. I sighed and open my locker, shoving the bag inside.

I wish that i could wake up with amnesia.

“Hey Sel, how are you feeling?” I felt stacy’s presence beside me.

“I’m-i’m good. I guess, don’t worry about me i’ll be fine.” i answer, avoiding her stare.

“Me and the others are worried about you, you know.”

“Yeah i know, but like i said. Don’t worry about me, i’ll be fine.” I mumbled, taking my book for my first period.

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I sat down on the bench, letting out a loud sighed. School is over and i decided to visit the park, where i always clear my mind because of the soft green grass and everything. There’s not much of people in here, there’s only kids and other teenagers.

“Hey there,” I turn my head to where the voice came from and saw the guy that showed me everything.

“Hi.” I mumbled.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“Yeah i guess.” I shrug a little, i heard him chuckled and sigh.

“You still love him don’t you?” He chuckled.

I sighed and looks down to ny connected fingers. “Admit it.” I stay quiet. He chuckles again and spoke, “It’s amazing how someone can break your heart and you still love them with every broken piece of it.”

I turn to look at him with a slight bewildered look, he looks at me before he spoke. “Don’t deny it, you still love him.” He murmured.

I sighed and turns away, “Selena, you need to move on and realize that he’s not the right person. And he’s not worth of your time, he doesn’t deserve your love.” i felt his hand on my thigh as i look down to it. I don’t know wether should i feel uncomfortable or comfortable. But his touch made me calm, my heart that were beating so fast, suddenly beating calmly and slow.
I place my hand on top of him and lift it off my thigh, he cleared his throat and spoke. “I’m sorry.”

“I-it’s okay.”

“It’s not just that, i’m sorry when we first met i literally hit on you. Trying to seduce you and stuff.” I turn my attention to him seeing him blushing and scratch this neck.

I chuckled and smile slightly, “It’s alright Zayn. It’s the past. We should forget about it.”

He smiles at me as I gladly turn it back. “So we’re friends?” He asked. I sighed quietly with a smile still plastered on my face, “Yes, we’re friends.” I nod as he smiled.

“Great,” He stood up and stretch his hand for me. “Come on, I’ll buy you ice cream.” He smiled.

“Y-you don’t have to–“

“But I want to, and besides, that’s what friends do right?”

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Harry’s p.o.v

“So do you prefer red or pink?”

I smile and chuckled at her, “Well you look beautiful wearing the both of them.” I peck her cheek as she blush and giggled. Her giggle reminds me of her. She went to the fitting room, as I sit back and wait for her. Everyday, what I do, it reminds me of her. I don’t know why it feels like I’m obsessed with her, but I know it’s too late to get her back. She doesn’t want me anymore, she wants me with her – Brianna – I can feel her broken heart, we were like strings attached to each other and nothing can break us apart, but then it became broken. She doesn’t bother to contact me anymore. She wants me with her. She doesn’t want me to regret every single thing.

“What do you think harry?” She soon came out from the fitting room, swirling around, the end of her pink dress flowing.

“It looks beautiful, I think you should wear this.” I smiled. She smiles back, showing her pearly white teeth and nod before entering the fitting room again.

Then suddenly I have an idea. Selena wants me to stop doing whatever I do, such as the gang thing. She told me before, she wants me to be safe and all. She wants me to live a good life and a normal life. Then I’ll do it. I’ll do it for her. And for Brianna too – I guess – Since she ever told me to stop doing that too. Then fine, I’ll stop.

But there’s nothing I can do for our broken strings.

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Second update, after this it will have an epilogue, selena’s diary and the end ): And my author’s note (: