falling flower | han jisung

- fourteen -

                        3rd person

you were speechless. you were supposed to marry jeongin? but he refused. thank god he refused. maybe you both wouldn't get along if he hadn't.
"y/n are you okay?? is it something i said??" he asked panicking. "jeongin lets just head home okay? i'm uh feeling tired." you lied. you couldn't face him.

he was supposed to be your husband. yet he refused, you didn't even know how or what relation he had to your family. he nodded and stayed quiet. you'll have to talk to him tomorrow about it, we arrived the house and we went to our rooms.
"hey y/n- woah woah what happened?" changbin asked rusher jumping out of bed seeing you grab your things and throwing them. he started panicking. "y/n calm down what the hell happened?" he asked this time harsher than before.

you started crying, you didn't know why. or what caused it, you didn't even know why you were so angry. it wasn't jeongins fault, it wasn't any of their faults but you couldn't help but envy them, no hate them for not trying to help you before. you couldn't help but hate jisung for not trying harder to help you. or stay with you.
changbin rushed over as you sobbed on the floor, he sat beside you and tried to calm you down. "hey hey shh calm down, it's okay, whatever happened it's over now okay?" he tried soothing you, but you cried harder, you couldn't help but feel he's only pitying you.

someone came in, "hey changbin can i ask- woah what happened?" they rushed in you couldn't help but cry more. "jisung you need to comfort her! she came in and started throwing her things and then started crying!" changbin said, jisung looked at you, "changbin go help chan with something i'll stay here until she calms down." jisung instructed.

changbin nodded and left leaving you and jisung alone, he rushed to your side trying his best to comfort you. "hey hey y/n it's me okay? whatever happened it's over. you have me okay? it'll be okay." he tried his beat to soothe you, however he didn't know that he was part of the reason you were like this.
"baby it'll be okay, right it'll all work out." he said hugging you and rubbing yiur back soothingly. he sighed. he hoped that maybe he helped.

"i hate you." you said letting out another sob, he became alarmed. "what? why d you hate me?" he asked more hurt now, "because you didn't fight! you didn't try to help me! you didn't fight hard enough for us! our friendship! we had plans as kids! yet you took what my parents said and backed off and never came back! you let them win i hate you!" you exclaimed crying more now.

he didn't realize he hurt you more than you hurt him. he knew that you needed his closure yet he pushed you away. he gave up because of your parents, "i'm sorry." he whispered. becoming teary eyes, "i'm so sorry." he hugged you tighter. both messes created.

you both had started calming down, you clinged onto each other. both calming down. "i don't hate you." you mumbled, you couldn't face him you didn't want to face him. "i know you don't." he mumbled back. you both haven't been this close before, you weren't sure how to feel. "y/n what happened." he asked letting go a little so he could see you however you clinged onto him.

"jeongin was supposed to marry me. you and seungmin were my childhood friends." you mumbled jisungs ears perked at the words marry and jeongin. "he refused though, but still." you mumbled again. you were tired. not just physically but mentally. you didn't want to keep bothering them.

"i'll just pack. i'll leave, i'll just let them win. you guys don't need to worry." you mumbled again sighing almost asleep, "hey hey you're not going anywhere. you're one of us now, okay we made a packed when we younger right? let's keep it okay? in a few years we'll go okay?" he tried his best to not show his weakness in his voice.

"you know why i couldn't help you?" he asked knowing you were asleep already, "because you're parents killed mine. they left me to fend for myself. they didn't care about me, your parents only cared about money." he laughed trying not to show his pain, "they could've cared less about us y/n they wanted us apart because they knew it would spark something. everyone had their eyes on you. you were a prize that only one could get. your parents would try their hardest to keep me away." at this point he was spitting his hate out. he couldn't stand what was happening.

"but then i transferred. to your school. in your class. i knew it was you from how you acted. i wanted your father and i to be on good terms. y/n he said you were an object. where they get the money from. why? you're their only child. for gods sake they refused to let me near you because i said i would marry you." he was holding on sobbing. he held you a little tighter.
"but now look at us. i don't know if you like me still y/n but i'm still in love with you. even if you hate me, please please don't give me my false hope." he finished, "you need your sleep now. i'll leave you alone. see you tomorrow y/n." he said before standing up he made sure you made it into your bed before wiping his eyes and leaving.

little did he know, you heard everything he said.