When Love Met Destruction

My Betrayal

Kade POV

I paced backed and forth in the living room of Chris's house where we were all gathered, trying to figure out where Elliot was and how we were gonna save him. I couldn't stop blaming myself. I just couldnt stop because it was my fault. I kept coming back here to Crisly. I kept coming back despite what possible things could have happened to me. I basically provoked Oli into doing this. If only I had fucking stayed away from here. If only I hadn't been so fucking stupid enough to step foot. Something could seriously happen to Elliot and I will spend the rest of my life blaming myself because I'm so fucking stupid. FUCK!

"Kade will you calm down" Chris spoke. I stopped and looked at him. He was sitting on the couch with his hand pressed against his forehead.

"No! No I will not calm down! What if something happens to him Chris? What if Oli hurts him or even kill him? Fuck being calm. Now is not the time to be calm!" I ranted on as I began to pace again, grabbing at my hair in pure frustration.

"Nothing is going to happen to him. We have people out looking for him" Ghost spoke reassuringly but I wasn't buying it.

"Oh really? Well lets look at the facts" I said crazily and sarcastically. "We have no idea where he is. We have no clue if he's alive. He have no clue if he's being guarded. We have no idea where Oli is. We didn't even know he's been tracking us. It seems to me that we are fucked right up the ass by a dildo with THORNS!" I screamed the last word and the room was quiet and the air was very tense. No body even spoke or looked at me. That confirmed I was dead right about everything I just said. I didn't even know what to do with myself. I was angry and pissed. Scared and terrified. But most of all I felt an immense amount of guilt eating at me. Because of my idiotic decisions, Elliot got caught up in my fucked up situation and his life is on the line. I wanted to scream, shout and just destroy everything but all I could do is pace.

"What did the note say exactly?" Chris spoke up finally after an eternity of silence. I sighed and covered my face with both of my hands before speaking.

"It said "See you in the trap". I don't know what the fuck that means" I said before dropping my hands helplessly. Chris looked down at his gloved hands with a very thoughtful expression. I sighed and sat next to him with my head in my hands. The guilt was just eating me alive. If anything happens to Elliot, I will never forgive myself.

I could feel the tears buidling up in my eyes as I thought about the worse outcome. I can't put anything pass Oli because I simply do not know what he is capable of. I mean the man tried to rape me for crying out loud on more than one occasion. The man killed my mom and my dad. The man was a fucking lunatic escaped from an asylum.

I sighed and rubbed my face. I felt a hand on my back, rubbing gently. Immediately I looked up from my hands and saw Chris looking at me with a weird expression....it almost looked like..sympathy? I don't know. I've never seen him with that kind of look before. But I didn't even question it. I just looked into his eyes and enjoyed the electricity that was shooting through me as we gazed.

"Wait you said trap right?" The voice of Ryan broke our intense gaze. We both looked over at him and I nodded to confirm.

"Trap house" He said and I looked at him weirdly. I had heard the terms trap house but I never knew exactly what it was. Chris stood up abruptly and grinned at Ryan.

"Your a fucking genius Ryan. I love you so much I could almost blow you" He said quickly.

"Really?" Ryan said hopefully and I felt this pang of jealously....what?

"I said almost" Chris answered as he pulled out his cellphone and unlocked it. He dialed a number quickly before pressing it to his ear.

"Austin. Oli's trap house. Its on Morse road. Meet us there. And have Danny and his crew check local trap houses and give me a report. If you find anything suspicious don't do anything until we get there" Chris said quickly and a second later he hung up.

"Suit up and let's go" Chris commanded and everyone got up quickly and descended. I made a move to follow them but I felt Chris grab my arm and pull me back. I looked up at him with a questioning glance.

"Where do you think your going?" He asked me seriously. He can't be serious.

"I'm going to suit up? Duh" I said before attemtping to leave again but he held me firmly. He chuckled incredulously and shook his head.

"No your not" He said with a smirk and I glared at him. This was not the time.

"Chris its my best friend. I'm going to help in any way I can" I said confidently.

"Yeah by staying here because your not ready for this and I can't protect you while trying to watch my back and others while also looking for your friend. Your staying here. Do not leave this house Kade" Chris looked into my eyes and I could see the true concern in his eyes. I gave him a harsh glare before crossing my arms.

"Fine" I mumbled and he let go of my arm finally. He gave me a victory smile before exiting the room. I glared at his back before sitting back on the couch and sulking. My friend. My best friend. I basically got him into this mess and I couldn't even help get him out of it. What kind of bullshit is that. Although Chris's intentions for me were good, I'm still not happy with it. But it's still shocking that he actually cares about me when all I do is piss him off. He actually wants to protect me. I loved that he did. Doesn't mean I have to conpletely love it.

I turned and watched as they began to exit the house. Chris threw me a salute and I gave him an icy glare as he left. As soon as the door closed I began to sulk like a child by crossing my arms and pouting. I hated Chris for making me stay behind. But I also loved him for caring about me so much. I heard the van start up outside and a second later I heard them pull off. Heroic assholes.

Wait a minute....did I just say I loved Chris? I'm delusional.

I shook my head and sighed as I looked around the room, anxious but also bored. Anxious because I wanted everyone to come home safely. Bored because I couldn't fucking go and help. I hated him so much right now.

As I looked around the room, I spotted a pair of keys sitting on the mantle above the fire place. Curious, I got up and walked over to the fireplace and picked the keys up. I recognized them as they keys to Chris's Mercedes.

That was outside.

That was outisde parked in front of the house. I had the keys to his car that was not in use. Perhaps I could..drive up there. I mean, Chris said it was on uh Morse road. And I think I could be a really good help. I've learned a lot from Chris and I could put it to good use. I could help find and save Elliot.

But then again, Chris is gonna be pissed off because I went against his word. Plus this is the real deal. This is not a game and someone could really get hurt.

But if they had an extra hand, I could help prevent that. I chewed on my lip as I made a choice. Stay here and keep out their way or go and try to help.

I really wanted to help save Elliot because it's my fault he got tangled up in this mess. Chris is gonna be pissed off and possibly try to kill me.

I gripped the keys before heading towards the front door....