CONFUSED|| woosan

chapter 17

i'm confused min

"how did you even know you were bi? i mean, you probably had to have had some experience?"
san asked his friend

"well when i was little like in elementary and middle school, i had crushes on girls. when i got into high school, i also had crushes on girls but boys too. easy enough"
minho said

san chuckled

"no, like how did you know? did you have to kiss them or sleep with them to know?"

minho giggled

"in middle school, you remember that girl i dated? her name was jiwoo or something?"
minho said

"yeah, you dated her."

"well i kissed her too. she was my first kiss. i felt all kinds of butterflies and i knew i was attracted to her."

san nodded for him to go on

"then freshman year, i thought this one dude was hella attractive. his name was wonjun."

"oh yeah! i remember him. you guys dated for a few months"
san smiled

"yeah, well we before we dated, he kissed me. i was not expecting it at all but i also felt all the tingles and butterflies in my tummy. i was also attracted to him"
minho laughed softly at the memories of his first kiss with a boy.

"then i thought about it for the next couple weeks and i found out i was bisexual. i noticed that i would have crushes on girls and boys. like i would think that me liking a boy was just me wanting to be their friend or something but i found out it was more than that."
he finished off

"wow, i know you already know this but i haven't had my first kiss yet. i haven't dated anyone. i've never experienced any relationship things. i don't know what to do"
san looked up at the ceiling

"well, maybe you should try and experience something?"

"like what?"

"try kissing wooyoung."

san's eyes went wide before he said
"what the fuck?! are you crazy? i'm not gonna kiss wooyoung!"

"why not?"
minho asked while finishing the rest of his cake

"what do you mean 'why not?' i could ruin our friendship! plus, i hardly know how to kiss!"
san whispered/yelled

the other boy shrugged his shoulders.

"look it up on youtube? if not, then just wing it." minho eyes then went wide for a second.

"or...or you could hook up with a girl at a party?"

san face palmed
"minho. no, i'm not like that. i don't feel comfortable with the idea of just hooking up with a girl. i want something real and not just a fling."

"ooh, that went from ten to one hundred real quick"
minho stared at san

san sighed
"how did you even know how to kiss when it came to your first?"

"hmm. well, i guess i just went for it. she said i was a good so i just assumed i was."
minho said

"okay, you know what? it's fine. it's getting late. i'm heading back to the dorm if you wanna come"
san said standing up at the booth

"coming"
minho got up and grabbed his drink

at minho's front door

"don't stress it too much. it will come naturally. i'll support you no matter what. think about what i told you to do"
minho said

"that was very cheesy but thank you. also, i'm not kissing wooyoung."
san said

minho smirked

"goodnight san"

"goodnight, minho"

with that, minho went into his room

san walked into his dorm and saw that wooyoung's bed was empty.

he took off his shoes and jumped when wooyoung came out of the bathroom

"oh my gosh, you scared me so bad"
san held his chest

wooyoung laughed

your laugh 🥺

"i'm sorry. where were you? i woke up and you were gone"

"minho and i went to the café to hang out and talk about things."
san said sitting at the table

a few seconds after, wooyoung sat straight across from san

"oh okay"
wooyoung said

"yeah"

it was silent for a few minutes

san was scrolling through his phone before wooyoung broke the silence.

"okay so i just finished this essay while you were gone. i was wondering if you could read it and tell me if there is anything i need to fix?"
wooyoung said afraid that his roommate would say no

san looked up from his phone and looked at the younger
"of course i'll read it"

san watched as wooyoung quickly went to his side of the room to get his book bag.
he pulled out his laptop from the book bag before opening it.

he typed the password in and pulled the essay up.

"what's the essay about?"
san asked

"well it was something about philosophy. it's kinda boring but interesting at the same time. it really doesn't make sense how that works."
wooyoung said and turned the laptop towards san

san laughed and said
"oh okay. gotcha"

with that, san started reading the essay being really amazed at how well his roommate explained things.

after a few minutes, san clapped a bit, giving the computer back to wooyoung

"that...that was honestly so amazing. you are so great at explaining things. it was definitely interesting and i think you will get a good mark on it"

wooyoung smiled brightly
"thank you so much san. that really means a lot"

san smiled back
"no problem. when is it due?"

"tomorrow"

"at least you already have it done. i am always either doing my essays the day it's due or i turn it in late."
san wiped a fake tear away

wooyoung laughed again
"that's probably not good."

"it's really not but i procrastinate on school work too much"
san also started to laugh

wooyoung and san then made eye contact after san stopped laughing

san was admiring wooyoung trying to guess what he was thinking.

wooyoung then coughed awkwardly
"i-i'm gonna go to seungmin's for an hour or so. i'll be back soon"

"okay, have fun"
san said awkwardly

he watched wooyoung put on his shoes and grab his coat.

wooyoung looked back at the older and said a quick bye before heading out the dorm.

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a/n:
i hope you liked this update. i tried hard on this chapter to be honest.
it's almost been another month since i updated. i have had writers block and not enough energy or inspiration to type out a whole chapter. i'll try to update more though❤️
ALSO, CAN WE TALK ABOUT STRAY KIDS' COMEBACK?!? GOD's MENU WAS SO AMAZING AND HYUNJIN'S HAIR. OMG. WATCH IT IF YOU HAVEN'T YET. YOU WILL DEFINITELY BE AMAZED.
now, stay safe everyone and please stay healthy! be happy and always smile🦋