Hello, dear reader, and welcome the very last installment of this book. Writing that one sentence really hit me hard, I-we, have come a long way to this, this end of a year long experience I will reminisce at, and also cringe at my own writings. I would like to just talk why I am completing this book, and other things.
NOTE: I'm pretty after all of this, some of you readers are wondering who the mystery guy was. I think I made it way too obvious!! But it's Echo!! He needed some attention, and my cousin likes him so I was like great let's write this to embarrass her!
After this, I will upload my drafts I didn't finish, even if it was like one word. So, enjoy the last ones, but they will be placed after this chapter (you'll figure it out!!).
I know after all of those pretty lighthearted paragraphs, I wrote them to kinda deal with my sadness? It's a weird feeling, because I feel so proud writing this book, all this hours of work, and the support that I received I will always remember. But at the same time, I feel so melancholic, because it's ending. We are near the end, and I want it to be the end, but at the same time I don't.
I know it's my choice to do this, I want to do this. And there is something that is like just tugging very lightly on my sleeve, but it makes one big hell of a difference. Something just holding me back, but I felt like I've overcome that because I want to finish this journey for good. I've reached a point where, I just cannot write anymore for these characters.
I don't dislike them at all, I love them, all of them, but this game that I have played for years has started to decline. Especially my interest, it hurts to say, but Rainbow has also reached a point for me where I can't play anymore.
I took a break from Rainbow in January, not the book, but just the game. I didn't want to play, because I was in a horrible slump, and I experienced a lot more toxicity from just solo queue teammates, and I probably shouldn't take it personally, but mate-words fucking hurt. I decided to focus on my other hobbies that actually made me happy, and that was when I realized that does playing Rainbow make me happy?
The answer was yes, the adrenaline rush you get when some stupid idiot blindly runs out into your line of sight. The just pure EUPHORIA you get when you clutch a game-winning 1v5. The smile on your face when a fellow teammate compliments you. It's a great experience. I loved every single adrenaline rush I got when I played.
My friends, I have to move on to new projects. These past weeks, I grew more uninterested in R6, I basically just gave up. I lost my drive, and I lost my drive to write for this book. It hurts a lot to say, it really does.
But (Y/N), I still love you so don't forget that!! I am so proud of this little following I have, and it means so much to me that people are interested enough to even read one thing! These stories, made people feel some type of way, and that never fails to make me smile. I hope that you were living the best (Y/N) life, and I for sure love all of your support, it warms my heart!
And, with that said, I will complete this story here. (Y/N), dearly beloved reader, keep on reading and achieving your dreams as (Y/N) with the boys, and don't forget the girls!! Love you all!
Thank you (Y/N) for reading R6S Operators x Female Reader, JarOfSerenity
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