Not Your Therapist

Part 4

What the fuck. what is he doing here.

"Josh. What are you doing here. " I asked him with a surprised and shocked. Then it clicked me. Did he tricked me all this while ? What the hell! I trusted him! My fists curled up in anger.

Before he could say anything, I walked briskly towards him. Inches away from him, glaring at him with anger. I am not good with anger. Really not good.

"Did you fucking trick me!? Did you intentionally do this? So that you can treat me and stuff like that!! I trusted you. Just because I didn't share it with you. Do you think you can trick me and bring me here!!?" I shouted at him

"Ed... Um. You're getting it all wrong. Let me explain.. " he started off to place his hand on my shoulder to calm me down but I wasn't going anywhere towards calmness.

"Don't fucking touch me!! Do you understand!? I can't believe I... Oh my god. You're sick. You have a boyfriend don't you..!? Why lie !? Why! I hate lies. Just keep your fucking appointment to yourself. And never text or call me again. " I shouted at him while pushing him away from my way and slammed the door behind.

I was breathing hard. I needed to smoke. I needed. I couldn't drink, I had an early class tomorrow. I walked briskly towards the bridge where I had decided to end my life a day back. I took a cigarette and smoked away. It was late. I was hungry but I kept on thinking about Josh. He tricked me. But I should have let him explain.. I just exploded on him. I sighed. Taking long drags of my cigarette. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I was surprised, I touched my cheek. What the fuck. Why was I crying.. I was angry at myself. I wiped my tears off forcefully.

"I am sorry for everything.. But please let me explain.. " I turned towards the voice. Josh was standing next to me, with his bag.

I looked down at the water. I sighed. He might have figured where I was. He looked sad.

It had been three hours. I was sitting on the railing and smoking away deep in thought.

"If you think I am gonna jump.. I am not...So piss off." I said while smoking away.

I heard Josh signing and climbing towards the railing. He sat side of me with his legs dangling. "What are you doing." I asked him being confused.

He brought his finger to touch my eyelash. I froze. What was he doing. I didn't flinch. He took his finger away and wiped it between his fingers.

"You have been crying..." He said as he looked at the water. I flinched. He wasn't supposed to know that.

I kept on staring at him. I saw a small wound on his temple. His spectacles hid it perfectly. But I saw it, even though it was night.

"And you been beaten..." I said looking at him. He flinched and looked at me with wide eyes. I didn't know from where I got this sudden confidence. I brought my hand to remove his spectacles. He kept on looking at me with a sullen expression. My eyes softened. I caressed my finger on the wound. He winced in pain. I shook my head in sorrow. I brought his spectacles to his face to wear it. I placed it carefully on him. My anger was gone. I wanted to do something for him. He melted be away. I smiled inside.

He looked at me confused. I got up and jumped on the road. I took his wrist and pulled him along with me.

"What.. Where are we going.." Josh asked me worriedly.

I kept mum. He figured I wouldn't say anything. We kept walking as I held his hand with mine. I felt his warmth and his fingers tightened around mine. My heart started beating faster. I held it firm with mine while I pulled him along. We walked in silence.