You Helped Me To See (Death Note Fanfic)

Eleven: Dear, It's Not Agony

It's got to be like eleven pm by now. But I can't sleep. I'm worn out, shopping sprees are insane workouts. Maybe I went a bit too mad with Ash's credit card... There are so many outfits in the bags from the shops. I was lucky that the pin was customised, or I wouldn't have worked it out; I went with a cliche first; his birthday and wen that didn't work I did the date that we met andi got in. Man, he had a lot of money. Emphasis on the had. I spent more than my fair share on really pretty clothes.

I'm not happy though. My hotel room is in the view of Ash's building. I can see it. I want to be in there. The building is taunting me. I'm desperate for instructions. I've been on my laptop just waiting for an email. I've had a few come through from my uncles but they're not important.

Bleep. Bleep.

Dani's just come online. This won't be fun; we haven't spoken very much since the Kira case got heated.

'Hisui! You're alive!' I smile, if only Dani knew...

'Hey Dani' I reply.

Midnight. Brilliant. No word from Ash.

'What's taking you so long?' I am asked.

'I was blown away, what can I say?'

'How about sorry?'

'I'm so sorry.'

I genuinely am sorry. I want to tell her, but I can't. Is this the way its got to be? Hiding from Dani.

'So how is Japan?'

'I miss you.' I type a dull reply.

This is tedious. It's not that I don't want to talk to Dani...but I would rather be talking to her in my room at Ash's building.

'I miss you so much! You're like my lesbian lover! And I'm being starved of youuuu!!!!! Long distance sucks! This love is killing me!'

It was always Dani's joke. She and I were closed, really close. Close enough that someone spread a rumour that we were dating. And instead of being grossed out and drying it, Dani had us play up to it.

'I know'

'Hisuiii! Is your trip finished yet?'

'No Dani, it's not over.'

It's not over. It's not over until we've caught Kira. Not that I could tell her that.

Knock. Knock.

My heart jumps out of my chest as I run to the door, swinging it open, eyes shining.

"Ash?" I ask.

It wasn't Ash. It was the room service I had ordered. I'm given my chicken chow mein. I sit back at the computer, beginning to eat. Dani's latest message is flashing on my screen.

'Why? Did you and Ash hook up?'

I snort, coughing. My chow mein goes everywhere as I splutter. What the Hell, Dani! Why?

Bleep. Bleep.

A new email! Please be Ash. Please be Ash.

I open the mail.

Mello.

I groan, why can't I be lucky? Why won't Ash message me?

The custard blond messaged me in a cliche code. The first letter of each word equates to a letter to make a word. He said, "Hey Hisui, are you close yet?"

I sigh. This is pointless.

I switch off the laptop and go to bed.

...

I hate waking up at stupid o'clock. Its like two am. Who the hell would be knocking at my door at two am?...except..!

I jump to my feet and race to the door, swinging it open.

"Ash!" I exclaim.

Not Ash. Just my luck. It could have been from Ash. This guy could have been sent.

"Come in, Touta-kun." I beckon him inside.

"Am I intruding?" I am asked.

"No, Ash is my boyfriend." I make a fist. Dammit, Dani!

"He was wrong about something and it's spiralled a bit. It's fine, he'all come to his senses soon." I assure.

"Anuzu..." No honorifics? What's wrong? "Please...can you sit."

I nod, perching on the edge of my bed.

"You were sent? Right?" I ask. He nods, sadly. I knew it!

"Something happened after Ryuzaki sent you home." Something... Happened...?

"Huh...what?" I cock a brow.

"The shinigami..." He looks away.

"I'm sorry Anuzu, I know you've known Ryuzaki and Watari the longest." Has he been drinking?

"Are you drunk, Touta?" If he's not using honorifics then why should I?

"I wish?"

"Help yourself to the stuff in the mini-bar." I instruct.

"No. No. I would rather tell you sober."

"What's going on, Touta?" I ask.

"Ryuzaki...the shinigami..." I'm still really confused. "The shinigami...the shinigami got them."

I slide off of the bed, falling onto my knees. I turn away to use the bed to stand.

"Got them? Are they...okay?"

"No...they didn't make it..."

Ash...Ash...ASH! Grandpa! Oh my God!

Matsuda Touta holds his hand out to me. I embrace him.

My life...my life was secure. But now...when I go blind...

Kira, Kira is my enemy. My faceless enemy. I have to catch him. Ash would want me to. Grandpa would too...deep inside.

"Touta, their families need a familiar face with them right now. I'm going." I state, letting him go and heading to the door.

"Anuzu, how long... How long did you know them?"

"I've known Ryuzaki for six years and Watari for my whole life." I hang my head. Don't cry. Just don't cry. It's not over yet. I will only be free of this pain when I catch Kira. I have to catch Kira. I have to help Mello and Near. I have to help. It's no over...