Unexpected Internet Love

Chapter 04

Milana's POV

What should I expect for a person that lives thousand miles away from me? Like Jayce, he knows when to cheer me up whenever I'm tired. I don't know him that much and it's really weird to talk to some strangers from the Philippines. I got used to it already, we still call everyday even though we have a really huge age gap. Months passed, I noticed a lot of changes. He's not that active anymore in Discord and I'm really worried. I just want to stop thinking about him because I know that he'll be fine but I can't help myself.

"Nak, we have to talk to you and it's important." Bigla naman akong kinabahan dito kasi it's rare for me that they have to talk about something and it really looks like it's important.

"What is it po?" Nasa sala kami ngayong lahat kasama din si Dylan. Magkatabi kami ni mommy then nakaupo naman si daddy sa upuan niya. Si Dylan naman nasa tabi ko, nanonood ng cartoons.

"We're going back to the Philippines." My dad seriously said, I don't know what to react. I'm happy because I can finally see that country but I'm sad because I don't know everyone except my grandma.

"In what reason?" I asked. They never decided to go there at all. I thought I'm just going to be stuck up here in Cali.

"It's your lola's 60th birthday. We have to go, she wants to see us all." Oh, I forgot about that but her birthday is like couple of weeks away.

"When are we going? So, I can pack up." I have to choose what to bring because I don't want to bring everything with me. I bet I'll do some shopping there too.

"Saturday, nak. Para may oras pa tayong bumisita sa iba nating relatives." It's wednesday today and I really have to start packing up.

"Did you hear that, Dylan? We're going to the Philippines!" Iniistorbo ko siya sa panonood niya ng cartoons. Wala pa din imik, seryosong nanonood pa din.

"Ate, stop bothering me! Hmp!" Aba, lumalaki na talaga si Dylan. Akala niya ba makakatakas siya? Nope, kikilitiin ko siya!

So, I started packing up and putting my life altogether because I'm still thinking about Jayce. Hours passed and I decided to check on my Facebook. I tried searching for him. All the information that he gave to me, I searched for it. His location, the name of his sister, and the school that he's going to. It feels like I'm being a detective with this part. I hate this because it feels like I'm stalking him but I have to do this. I looked at his sister's friend list, and I found him.

He's with someone else. He has a girlfriend.

I don't know what to react, but I started shaking and I can't breathe properly. I want to cry so bad but I fear that my parents would hear me. I feel suffocated. I don't know what to do. I checked his account and it looks like they've been together for a long time. I had my flashbacks, the day that he told me that he loves me. He said it in Discord, in call.

I woke up and I found myself laying on the ground. I just realized that I passed out and I'm still holding my phone. Good thing, the door was locked. I opened my phone and it went straight to his account. I'm not dreaming at all and this is all reality that I have to accept. I opened Discord and I messaged him for the last time.

ryuzaki: Will you live your life better without me?

Jayce didn't answer for almost two days but then I got a notification from him.

New notification: icarus sent you a message.

icarus: I don't know. Your life would be better without me. You chatted my cousin, I might have been dishonest with you. Including my identity and all but, that's about it. It's better that way. I love you, that's all that matters, whether you believe it or not. I'm sorry.