Stuck in the in-between.

What the fuck just happened?

The car ride was pretty quiet, the small echoing of the radio filled the silence, the clanking of Spankys tags hit together while he sniffed the air coming from the back window.

"Are you okay?" I asked pulling up to a red light.

"Mmmm...oh yeah I'm alright, are you okay?" He said pulling out of a daydream.

"I'm fine, you're just extra quite....and that's not really like you...talkie. "I said looking over in his direction.

"Oh sorry, I'm okay just daydreaming I guess." He said turning up the radio a little more. "I like this song." The music drowned any sort of talking that we could do. I pulled into the parking lot.

"Okay," I said turning down the radio. "Here we are." I unlocked the car door.

"Thanks," he said unclipping his seatbelt. I could tell that what happened back at the condo really bothered him.

"A.J, what happened back at the condo, those things happen. It was a mistake, and one that you couldn't control." I turned around to look at Spanky who was sticking his head out the window. I turned back around to A.J who was just staring out the front window. "Did you hear me?" I said looking at him.

"A.J?...."

He continued to stare out the window. After a few seconds passed he turned to face me. There was a look in his eyes and his face seemed cold. I looked back at him with a soft glance to give him reassurance that everything was alright and I wasn't mad. He turned to face his door and opened it a little. I put my head down thinking that he was for sure still upset when he turned back around quickly and with force, leaned over the middle consul picked up my head with both hands, and kissed me. Our lips met passionately, his big strong hands pulled me in closer to him. At first, I was in shock I sat there looking at him while he kissed me but after a while, everything around us disappeared. I fell further into his kiss. The rattling of Spankys collar vanished, the radio stopped producing music, the sounds of the car got quite. It was just me and him and it just felt right. Something -just- felt -right!. After about 30 seconds into our kiss, I remembered Noah, I remembered what was actually happening, I thought of my engagement ring, I thought of the wedding, I thought of the past 5 years I spent with Noah, I thought of my family, I thought about Noah's family. I pushed back and looked at A.J. his hands still on my waist. He opened his eyes and looked back at me. I pulled out of his hands and faced forward with my hands on the wheel. Fear and embarrassment filled my body. I felt my face get hot and my body started to shake a little. A.J stared at me for a little bit and then got out of the car and grabbed Spanky to get into his car. I sat there in shock. I couldn't process what had just happened. I kept my hands on the wheel and continued to face forward. My palms were sweaty but my body was cold. A.J pulled out of the parking lot, we made direct eye contact and he drove off.

"What the fuck just happened?" I said out loud.