Harry-
"I hope to God that you didn't find me like this, but if by chance you did, please don't remember me this way. Remember me as the goofy, fedora wearing idiot that dropped your birthday cake on the floor last year. Remember me as the man you loved. I know that I'm not at liberty to ask you for any favors, but I want you to do something for me. I want you to love again. I want you to find another man that can ignore the dark demons in his mind long enough to love you until you're old and gray, until the day comes that I can see you again. Please be happy, live a beautiful life and remember me whenever you see a sunset. I'll always be looking down on you, keeping you safe. And someday you'll join me, and we'll pick up right where we left off. I love you, forever and always."
Liam-
"I'm sorry, so sorry. I should have stayed strong for you, and I know that, but I'm so tired (Y/N). I've been fighting for so long, and I can't do it anymore. The fake smiles, the lying, lying to you, lying to the boys, my family, I just can't do it. I haven't been okay for awhile and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you. I couldn't dump all my problems on you, I couldn't live with myself if I brought you down with me. I was a lost cause before I met you, you made it easier and gave me a reason to stay. I'm sorry babe, I hate that I'm leaving you alone in this world. I was selfish to love you as much as I did and always will. You mean the world to me, you know that? You were the the only one that loved me for me and stayed by my side no matter what. You were the light in my dark life and I need to thank you for that. Thank you for loving me, and I'm sorry for letting you down. Forgive me."
Louis-
"How morbid and cliche is this, eh? A suicide letter I apologize for the messy handwriting, it's hard to write at the given point time. You probably hate me for this. Actually no, I'm positive you hate me for this. Especially since I don't have the decency to do it when you're not home. You're sleeping in our bed, snoring just as loud as usual I'm sure I'll still be able to hear that shit when I'm dead. Too soon? Sorry. Shit, this is harder than I thought it was going to be. Just do me a favor, and make sure you tell the truth at my funeral. Tell them I was an asshole, tell them that I was selfish, tell them that even though you loved me, there were days you threw plates at my head and told me to go fuck myself. Be honest, and move on. Don't dwell on me, I'm not worth it. Love you always."
Niall-
"This is not how I wanted this to end, not even close I wanted to hold you for one more night and tell you that I love you, but I know that it would just make this so much harder. I can't stay, I can't keep pretending that everything is okay. I'm so numb, (Y/N), I can't feel anything anymore and I'm not sure if that's worse than the pain. My mind is so horrible and I can't escape it, belive me I've tried. I love you so much, more than you'll ever know, and you were what kept me holding on for longer than I ever planned to. Tell the boys that none of this is their fault. Tell them that I love them, they're my brothers and thank them for being there for me. Make sure they sure they keep the band going as long as they can. I'll still be their biggest fan, always. Don't forget me, (Y/N), please don't. And make sure Theo knows how much his Uncle Niall loved him too, and Greg. And my Ma and Dad. And please tell the lads I loved them. And I love you, I love you so much. I always will."
Zayn-
"I am so sorry that I had to do this to you. No, I don't mean killing myself and leaving you. Honestly at this point I think that it's the best thing I could do for you. You deserve so much more than me, (Y/N), and I'm only holding you back. I was destroying you, I was ruining you and you were too in love with me to leave. I was so broke inside and you tried so hard to fix me and make me feel whole, and for a while you did. But you were my temporary crutch and I just couldn't keep leaning on you. I ran out of ways to cope, ways to deal with the pain I'd been feeling. It just all got to be to much. The alcohol gave up on me, and so did the drugs, and it was only a matter of time before you did too. Just know that I loved you so much, more than anything. Goodbye, angel.
