I have feelings too {phan fanfiction}

Hate

Dan's P.O.V

I wake up to muffled sobs. I turn over to see phil crying as he's scrolling through his phone. I wrap my arm around him. "Baby, what's wrong?" He sat up. He was serious. "Just like I said.. Dan.. The hate. You said how you couldn't take it.. I though i could but i guess I was wrong.. Dan. It's bad." I grab my phone. I knew that we were gonna get hate but not so bad that phil would cry.. I open the twitter app as i begin to read. Some people say simple stuff like 'I knew it!' or 'I ship it!' or stuff i enjoy like 'I will always support you two #truelove !'. But then the load of hate spams like 'ew fags' or 'unsubscribe'. Stupid stuff. I don't know what i was afraid of. "Phil, why are you so sad? It's like normal hate.." He looks at me tears still streaming down his face. "That's what you see... Did you get a personal message with a long hate paragraph?" He starts bawling. "WhAT?! let me see it right now." He hands me his phone and i read the long hate message. It says things like 'kill yourself you gay homo' or 'slice your wrists' or 'stop trying your useless'. "That really is worse than what I've seen.. Baby i want you to know that I will always be here to comfort you.." He leans his head into my chest and starts to cry. Hard. "It's all gonna be okay honey.." I rub patterns on his back for comfort. That's what my mom always did for me when I was upset and it always worked. He steadily, but slowly, calmed down. He eventually picked up his head and told me he loved me. Something i already knew. "It's only morning... We have a long day ahead of us." "I'm probably gonna go for a calming walk later okay?" His eyes could make anyone happy. "Sure babe but what are we gonna do in between that time.?" He has his thinking face on. He's adorable and I'm happy to call him mine. "Well....... we could watch a movie again or play games? I don't wanna go anywhere to where someone will notice us.." He puts his head down. "Aren't you going for a walk later though? People are gonna see you then.." "It's gonna be dark. I'm gonna wear a hoodie, probably yours, and just have a calming walk." He looks happy when he says that. He needs time alone from me nagging at him. "Well what do you wanna do now then?" Hmm... "Let's play games for a while and then we could possibly watch a movie?" He smiles. Obviously forced, i know he's still sad. "Okay sounds good. LETS GO!" I smile. "LET US GO NOW TO THE GAME ROOM!" i stand up and gesture for him to jump on my back. I nod again to reassure him it's okay. He jumps on and we run into the game room. I throw him on the couch and sit on top of him. I give him kisses. I eventually, after an attack of kisses, got off of him. We started playing skyrim. We played for hours when we decided it was time for a movie. We watched a comedy because scary movies aren't my friend. After the movie it was pretty dark and phil still needed to have that walk. "I'm gonna go on that walk now okay babe?" I sigh. "FIIINNEEEE" He giggles. "I'll text you when I'm on my way home." That made me a tad happier. "Okay hun" He grabbed my hoodie and headphones and walked out.

Phil's P.O.V

The cool air feels nice. I plug in my earphones and start listening to some random ass music. I start to walk and i can feel my lungs already burning. I like walking, it's relaxing. It helps me get my mind off of things. Especially with everything that's been happening. The hate. I thought dan would be more distraught than I am. But the fact that all the hate is heading my way is just horrible to think about. I text dan saying I'm on my way home. I keep walking but before i know it everything is black and I'm in pain. I'm being punched repeatedly. I wince in pain. Then I'm in a car. I'm moving. I'm being tossed around. It hurts. "Help me dan" I whimper..

Dan's P.O.V

It's been 30 minutes since phil said he was coming home... I'm getting worried. I text him to ask where he's at. No reply. Not even a read. "Phil..." I manage to breathe out whilst at the same time my heart sunk. I can't believe he actually did it... I didn't think he'd leave me... Oh Phil... I slumped against the wall and let gravity take me with it. "Please come back," I whimpered "please." I need to do something. I decide to call the police so they can search for him. I get up and grab a phone. I call 911 and I tell them everything. Later they appear at my house. I tell them in person what has happened to my boyfriend. They said that they would search for him. They better try. Hard. I decide to go to sleep leaving the door unlocked just in case my baby would come home.. I wake up to pounding at the door. Thinking it's phil, I get excited. I was wrong, so wrong. It was winston. "What do you want?" I say rudely. "I heard about phil... I wanted to comfort you.." He smiled. I don't want his comfort, at all. "No thank you" I say and attempt to shut the door. He stops it with his hand. "Your gonna want to make up with me." I'm scared. "Why?" He looks at me. "Trust me, your gonna want to." "Uhm, no thank you." This time I shut the door. Fully and lock it. I can hear him through the door. "Your gonna regret you said that." He laughs as he walks off. I start to silently cry and whimper for phil to come home. I don't even have an appetite I'm so worried. I'm sitting at the door crying as i drift off to sleep. I wake up with a horrible dream lurking in my mind. That someone came and knocked on the door and it was phil. We cuddled and had an amazing life together. We got married and no more hate ever occured. It was perfect. But waking up to realize its all a dream sucks. I miss cuddling my baby. I look horrible. My hair was curly and messy. The way phil liked it. I put on his clothes and keep my hair like that for him. I hear knocking at the door thinking my dream was coming true but nope. Just the police. "Dan, we have great news." My face lit up. "YOU FOUND HIM?!" i blurted out faster than ever. "Well, not exactly.. We found where he is located." "GO GET HIM THEN" i was angry but that's rude to say to a cop. "I'm sorry.. I just miss him so so much.." The two cops look at eachother. "We know kid.. but we can't just.. 'go'. We have to go undercover because what if there are traps and what if they are already expecting us. We have to be careful but we will definitely find your boyfriend." They smile which makes me feel confident. "okay thank you! Please inform me when you guys go because i need to go to! i have to. I don't care if i risk my life, I have to! Also inform me if anything new happens.. Please.." "Uh, okay kid. Have a safe night! We will most likely come back tomorrow." They smile and walk off. "Come back..." I mumble as i get in bed back to rest.