Need you (Dixison)

17.

Song: don't fall in love lol- Tate McRae
Addison's Pov
"I'm sorry Dixie, I just can't trust you." i walked away.
I walked for a bit before stopping and turning back one last time to see her on the ground. She had fallen to her knees, and she guys sat there tears streaming down her face.
I continued to walk and she started to yell, but not at me. In fact she wasn't yelling at anyone, she was yelling at the sky.
"FUCK YOU! YOU JUST HAD TO DO THIS TO ME! I SEE WHAT YOU WANT I WONT BE HERE MUCH LONGER!" she yells.
The last part concerned me but then I remembered that we were graduating this year.
       Then I decided to do something I never thought I would. I reached behind my neck and unhooked the chain. I took the necklace into the palm of my hand and stared at it for a bit. I planted one last kiss on the heart before dropping it to the ground and walking away.
She started to scream again but I was to far away to make out the words, and with that I walked back into the school. I was on my way to the bathroom went I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. Who the hell is texting me? I shook my head and continued walking, I'll just check it in the bathroom.
I pushed open the bathroom door and pulled my phone from my hoodie pocket.

Dunkin☕️🤍: Addison I'm bored.
Me: what am I supposed to do about that?
Me: not my problem char.
Dunkin☕️🤍: you wanna come hangout after school?
Me: umm
Me: what about Dixie
Dunkin☕️🤍: what about her?
Me: we're not on good terms on any extent. Me: Being in her house is like weird.
Dunkin☕️🤍: you'll be fine. dixie is barely ever home, now more than ever, so you don't have to worry about her
Me: okay, I'll go
Dunkin☕️🤍: yay😌
      A couple minutes later the bell rung signaling the end of school.
Dixie's Pov
     I heard the final bell ring and I pushed myself off of the ground and began walking back to the building when I saw something glinting in the sun. I walked over and picked it up. It was a necklace with a metal heart on it with the letter "D" engraved into it. She finally did it, she took it off, she let it go. She let me go.
      I stuff it into my pocket and continue to walk into the school. Hallways were flooded with students trying to leave as usual.
       I felt I tiny buzz in my pocket and pulled out my phone.
Char char🥺🥳: hey I'm riding home with someone else so don't worry about me.
I left her on read and put my phone back in my pocket. I put the stuff in needed to put in my locker in it and then walked out of the building.
I didn't have the energy to go anywhere else but home. Plus I'd barely been there that last few days. Maybe it would be nice to go home. Yeah, everything was gonna be fine. I would go home and just sleep since I'd barely gotten any the last few days.
I got into my car and drove out of the parking lot. There wasn't much on the way home but trees and the regular streets scattered here and there.
Addison's Pov
Me pulled up in the driveway of the D'amelio residence and got out of the car.
"Come on let's just go chill in my room." She says dragging me inside.
"Oh hi Allison!" Marc says and Charli is pulling me through the house.
"Hi Mr. and Mrs. D'amelio, it's nice to see you guys!" I smile.
Dixie's Pov
      I pull into my driveway and slam the car door shut as I get out. I walk into the house head held low.
      "Hey, Dixie you're back, so I was think why don't you invite Griffin over for dinner. It just seems like as your boyfriend he doesn't come around a whole lot." My dad says clearly not paying any attention to the way I look.
       "Could you just shut up Marc. I'm not in the mood." I say.
       "Hey dixie what's wrong?" My mom asks me.
"I had a really rough day, that's all." I say trying to convince her I'm okay.
She walks closer and pulls me into a giant hug. "I know you're hurting, but please know I'm always here. You can tell me anything, I'll never judge you. I love you so much Dixie Jane." She whispers.
"I know mom, one day I'll explain everything, today's just not that day." I sadly smile.
She nods and I walk upstairs.
Addison's Pov
Charli and I were chilling on her bed talking when we heard and knock.
"Who is it?" Charli called out.
"it's me." Her sister called from the other side of the door.
My eyes went wide. What do I do? I can't see her after what I said earlier.
      "I'll be there in a second." Charli says.
       "Go hide." She whispers.
       "Where?"
        "I don't know. My closet or some shit. Find a place now." She moves off the bed towards her door.
       Well the closest thing to me is her closet. So the closet it is. I quickly shut the door just as Charli opens hers.
        "Can I just come in here for a while, I miss sister bonding time." She gives Charli a sad smile.
       "Yeah, you can chill here for a bit." Charli walks back to her bed and lays down.
      She quickly looks around the room before quickly locking eyes with me.
       Her attention focuses back to her sister and she lays on the bed next to her.
Dixie's Pov
        "Char?"
         "Yes Dickles?"
"Am I a good person?"
"Yes, I think you are. You always protect the people you care about, and you have a giant heart that you only show to people you care for." She says.
          "Do you think that anyone will ever love me?" I ask.
          "Yes, I'm positive, and whoever that person is going to be so lucky."
Addison's Pov
As I stood there in the closet listening to the convo going outside I realized just how bad I had hurt her. Maybe she was the same girl I had fallen in love with?
"Or maybe she feels guilty for cheating on you" I thought.
God I hated the constant war going on in my head and all because of a girl. But she wasn't just a girl. She was Dixie Jane D'amelio.
Dixie's Pov
"Charli, she hates me."
"Who?" She said confused.
"Addison Rae Easterling, the love of my life. She hates me."
"I'm sure she doesn't hate you." She says.
"I beg to differ. Her exact words from earlier were "No Dixie, there is no way to fix us. Maybe there shouldn't have been an us in the first place." and then she told me she couldn't trust me and walked away. The only light in my life just walked away, and it hurts really fucking bad char."
         "Dixie I'm sure she just got caught up in the heat of the moment and said somethings that she didn't mean." Charli says.
        "Are you really defending her right now char? I know you're friends but listen. If she really loved me, and she didn't mean it she would still be wearing the damn necklace." I say pissed off with tears running down my face.
      Her face drains of color and her eyes go wide.
       "Yeah she took it off, she gave up on us Charli. And you know she was right, I never loved her like she loved me." I pause.
Addison's Pov
       That hurt, I didn't want to be correct about that.
        "Because I loved her so much more than she could have ever even imagined." She finishes her sentence.
Dixie's Pov
       "I don't think I'm ever getting her back. So there you have it, I fucked up, I'm a fucked up person I don't need to be here, no one needs me. No one ever has. Especially her, she doesn't need me. I just hope she finds someone new that will treat her right and love her more than I ever could, because that's all she deserves. Happiness. Pure happiness, it's all I wish for her."
        "Dixie, I love you so much, I know things are hard right now but please know that I'm always here for you, okay?"
        I nod and she pulls me into a hug.
      "Hey umm, I'm gonna go to my room, I kinda wanna be alone now." I sniffle wiping the tears from my eyes.
        "I understand. I love you dickles." She gives me a sad smile as I walk out of her room.
       I open the the door to my room and fully take in the destructive mess I've made the pas few days.
       I had clothes throw everywhere, papers just lying around, I had tons of marks in my wall from punching it. After all of this I decided to sit on the bed.
Addison's Pov
       I heard the door close and I opened up the closet and walked out.
       "I can't believe I hurt her that bad." I think to myself.
        "You okay?" Charli asks sadly.
        I nod my head no, "you?" I ask.
        She shakes her head no.
       "Look Charli, I'm so sorry, you didn't need to be involved in our problems or brought into the situation, I'm sorry."
        "No, it's my sister and my best friend, of course I want to be invoked and know. I care to much about the both of you. I hate seeing the both of you hurt this bad, but Addison is it true? What she said?"
        "Yeah, it's true. I definitely said somethings I wasn't proud of and I did take off the necklace." I say sadly.
       "I don't think she cheated on you, I know she was a fuck girl, but you're different to her Addison. She cares about you. She really does. That's my only imput on the situation, the rest of it is up to you two." She states.
        Maybe I'm wrong and she didn't cheat. I never wanted to hurt her.
Dixie's Pov
         I never meant to hurt her. God, I'm such a fucked up person.
        I reached into my pocket pulling out the necklace and letting it lay flat on the palm of my hand. I really had fucked up. This is why I didn't open up to anyone, I didn't want to get hurt again. I didn't think I could handle it a second time around, and I was right, because I can't.
My mind brought up a familiar conversation from the morning after the party.
Flashback
"What's going on in that beautiful head of yours?" She questions me while playing with my hair.
"I just don't want to get hurt again."
"Who hurt you?" I can see the confusion on her face.
"You."
"Dix, I would never do anything to hurt you." She said with a sad tone.
End of flashback
        This is what I was afraid of.
        "FUCK!" I yell.
         "WHY!" I punch the wall.
          "CAN'T!" I punch it again.
         "I!" I hit the wall harder.
         "BE!" I punch again.
          "GOOD!" I throw another one.
         "ENOUGH!" I punch the wall with all my force.
          I feel something warm trickle down my hand. I look down to see my knuckles bleeding. I slump to the ground and curl up into a ball. I feel the tears start pool up in my eyes but I couldn't do anything about it at this point, so I sat there crying not daring to move from my spot on the floor.
           I didn't want to move, or breathe. Hell I didn't want to live anymore. I was so beyond hurt. So I drifted off to sleep right then and there, on the floor with bloody knuckles curled up into a ball.
Addison's Pov
       It was roughly about 8pm and I knew that I should be heading home soon as my family would finally be there.
        "Hey char, I think I should head home, but thank you for this today, I appreciate it." I give her a hug.
      "Anytime Addi." She smiles and I walk out of the room.
       But I had one stop to make before leaving. Dixie's room. I hadn't heard a song from her room in over and hour so I figured she was asleep. I slowly opened the door and closed in behind me quietly.
        I was right, there she was curled up in a ball on the floor sleeping peacefully. I wonder what she was dreaming about.
         I decided to walk closer and pick her up, setting her down in her bed. I noticed the dried blood on her knuckles and the damp part of her long sleeve shirt.
        "I don't think she's going to want blood on her sheets." I thought to myself.
         So I lifted her up so and tugged at the bottom of her shirt pulling it up and over her head. She was now shirtless, which I mean is how she usually slept. She had jeans on but they didn't seem to bother her so I'll let her sleep in them. I pull the blanket I've her and sat down lightly next to her.
"I know you're sleeping but I just want to tell you that I'm sorry, I don't think you cheated, and I'm sorry for everything I said. I love you so much, but we can't just go back to being normal after this, we're gonna have to rebuild some things. I love you dixie."
I planted the softest kiss possible on her lips and then got up and exited the room.
Word count: 2309
So here's this chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, thank you for 19k. I apologize for any grammatical errors.