NJ by Chelsea Cutler
Dixie's Pov
I stumbled up to the door on the freezing rain and knocked.
The door opened to reveal and medium sized woman in her later 40's with brown hair.
"Dixie? Darling is that you?" She asks.
"Yes Mrs. Tifford. It's me."
"Oh dear, please come in. Why were you out in the pouring rain?" She asks.
Kate's mom knew that I was gay she was one of the first adults I had ever told, I distinctly remember that day.
It was three months into freshman year, and I still remember it like it was yesterday.
Flashback
"Kate I'm telling you, Addison is the most beautiful girl to ever exist, I'm so I love with her it's not even funny." I slur.
"I'll have to meet her someday Dixie. The person who makes my best friend so happy."
"To bad you'll never meet her. We stopped talking after we moved. I misssss herrrrrrr."
"I'm sure you'll see her again." Kate says.
"Hey it's 2am we should get to bed so you're not dead when we bring you home tomorrow." She says.
I nod and crawl onto her bed.
"Kate Kate."
"Yes Dixie?"
"I love you." I say as I grab her and pull her closer.
It had been so long since I held someone this close. I snuggled up closer and fell asleep with my head on her shoulder.
The next morning
I woke up with a raging headache.
"Fuck" I groan and got out of bed.
I need meds. I walked downstairs to her kitchen and walked to the medicine cabinet.
"Looking for these?" I turned wide eyed looking at the woman behind me.
"M- Mrs. Tifford, how nice to see you up this morning."
"Save it kid, take two of these and things should eventually get better." She hands me two pills and a cup of water.
I take the pills with the water and put the cup in the sink.
"So, girls."
I choked on the air.
"Excuse me ma'am?" I say.
"Don't worry Dixie I don't care. You're a great kid and a great friend to Kate I don't care who you love honestly."
"Thank you, that means a lot to me." My eyes start to water.
"Come here." She says opening her arms.
I walk over and hug her.
"I love you kid, you will always have my love and support." She says letting go.
I give her a huge smile and walk back upstairs.
End of Flashback
"Umm, me and Addison got into a fight, and she kinda kicked me out of her car." I sniffle thinking about the situation.
"Dixie, come here."
I walk into her open arms and hug her tightly.
"You guys will figure this out soon. I have faith. No one has ever made you that happy, you can't give up. Fight for her." She says.
"I'll never stop fighting for her but I don't think she loves me anymore." I say.
"I'm positive she does, now go upstairs Kate is in her room." I nod and walk upstairs.
Addison's Pov
I pull up at my house with tears streaming down my face. No one was home, in fact no one was going to be home at all today, my brother had some type of thing in another city and they would be staying there over night. So it was just me.
I walked up to the door and unlocked the door entering the dark house. To make matters worse there was going to be a huge thunderstorm tonight and although I should have been used to them I was always terrified of them, and now I was alone. Standing there soaking wet and the front entrance I decided that I should take a shower before I get sick.
As I walked upstairs the place seemed to get lonelier by the second. I turned the lights on as I made my way the the bathroom. Once I was there I closed the door and looked at myself in the mirror.
I looked broken. I had mascara all over my face, my hair was a mess, and my clothes were soaked, but more than physical appearance I was shattered. 4 years. I never stopped loving her and I don't think I ever will, but I can't be with her if she does things like this. I turned on the shower and stripped down to nothing and stepped into the scolding hot water.
For some reason I didn't have the energy to stand and sunk into the corner of the space and let the hot water hit my face. I began to cry.
"HOW COULD SHE DO THIS TO ME!?" I yelled and sobbed harder.
"How? What did I do? Why couldn't I be good enough? I love her!"
I hear the thunder outside and flinched.
I quickly wash myself and then step out of the shower. I wrap a towel around myself and walk to my room.
I drop the towel and search for comfortable clothes. My eyes meet a familiar stack of neatly folded clothes in the corner.
Boxer, a bra, and a hoodie. The same ones from two weeks back. Hers clothes. I had washed them but never got the chance to give them back to her. My emotions got the best of me as I slipped on the clothes and walked over to my bed.
I wrapped my arms around myself as I smelled the hoodie. Just like her, it smells just like her. Just then a huge bit of thunder hit.
I screamed. Maybe I should call her? She would keep me safe.
No she won't Addison, she's doing just perfect without you, she's probably happy that she doesn't have to deal with you anymore.
Dixie's Pov
Happy would be the opposite to describe my life right now. I was broken, I didn't mean to hurt her. Only if I had just sorted everything out in the hallway this never would've happened.
"Why am I such a horrible human being? I'm so fucked up. I lost the most important thing to me." I say to no one on particular.
I grab the vape from my pocket and take a hit.
"Dixie, you need to cry and talk about your feelings, not get high and forget them." Kate says from across the room.
I was laying down on her bed while she was sitting on a beanbag in the corner of the room.
"I just don't want to feel Kate. Not right now. I don't think I can handle it."
1 hour later
"KK come here."
I feel the bed dip at her presence next to me.
"Cuddle with me?" I ask.
She wraps her arms around me and pulls me closer. I wrap my arms around her waist and place my head on her shoulder.
"Thank you."
A couple minutes later she let's go of me and stands up. "I'll be back in a second."
Kate's Pov
It's killing me seeing Dixie like this. She's my best friend and I would do anything for her. But I couldn't do this by myself and that meant calling someone I wasn't the best of friends with.
I picked up my phone and dialed the number.
"Hello?" I heard a deeper voice say from the other side of the line.
"Griffin. I need you to come to my house. It's Dix. She needs us right now." I say.
"I'll be there soon." He hangs up.
I walk back over to her and lay down.
"Where did you go?" She asks.
"I had to call someone. Hey, what do you think about getting take out? I'll go to the Chinese place an couple streets from here and go pick us up some food. That sound good?" I ask her.
She nods and I hear a knock at my door. Ah, perfect timing. I walk over and open the door.
A soaking wet Griffin walks through my door.
"It's literally storming out there." He said taking off his hoodie.
"Ok so you stay here with Dixie and I'm going get food, I'll be back soon." I close the door and walk downstairs.
"Hey mom, I'm gonna go drive to the Chinese place and go get some food. I'll pick up enough stuff for all of us." I say.
"Okay, be safe it's storming out there. Stay safe I love you."
"I love you too mom." I open the door and quickly run to my car.
Griffin's Pov
"Hey Dix, what happened?" I put a hand on her shoulder.
"So basically you know how Avery couldn't leave me alone, well I wanted to clarify to her that I love Addison an-and I took her into the closet at school because I didn't want a public fight, but Addison saw me drag her in there and she thought I was cheating on her. So the afternoon we were driving home and she blew up on me. She told me that I never loved her like she loved me, and that I was a different person than the one she fell in love with."
"Dixie-"
"Griffin I didn't even get to ask her on a date, I never got to ask her to be my girlfriend. I never got to tell her how much I loved her. Because she's right, I never loved her like she loved me, and it's because I loved her so much more than she could ever imagine. I still do." She sobs.
I shift closer and pull her into a hug.
"I know I'm not the best friend you could ask for but I'm always gonna be here for you dork." I mess up her hair a bit.
"Thank you gremlin." She laughs while still crying.
Kate's Pov
I walk in the building and see and figure standing in a hoodie and sweatpants. Hold up those are Dixie's clothes. Who the hell would have them.
Then I hits me. "Addison?" I say to the figure and it turns.
Sure enough it was sweet, innocent, heartbroken Addison Rae.
"Kate, what are you doing here?"
"Picking up food for my family, you?" I ask.
"Coming get food. It's just me at my house tonight and I don't like the weather but I have no one to stay with me." I hear her sniffle.
I walk over and give her a hug. "Why me?" She mumbled into my shirt.
"Just talk to her, I can't fix this but you guys can."
"She doesn't want me." She replies.
"Just try."
If only I could tell her that there's a broken Dixie D'amelio sitting on my bed at this very moment.
"How about I call someone to stay over at your house?" I ask.
"Who though?"
"Avani and Charli are your best friends. I can call them hell I'll call anyone you want. I just want you to be okay Addison." I say.
"Yeah, can you call them please?"
I nod and walk off to the side. I dial Charli's contact.
"Hey Char this is important. Is Avani around you?"
"Yeah, we're hanging out in my room. Why?"
"Can you guys go stay at Addi's tonight? She's home alone and hates thunder storms and with everything going on I don't think she should be alone tonight." I say.
"What's do you mean? What's going on? Is she okay?"
"It's not my place you tell you I'm sure she'll tell you two, but please stay there tonight."
"What about Di-" i in cut her off.
"Charli! Please I'm begging you. Just stay there and make sure she's okay."
"Yeah, sure Kate we'll stay there tonight." She says.
"Thank you." She hangs up.
I walk back over to her. "Yeah they're gonna go to your house tonight."
"Thanks Kate, I love you."
"No problem Addi. I love you too"
"Well my food's here so I'm gonna head home, but I'll see you tomorrow Kate."
"Drive safe Addi." I call as she walks back into the storm.
I really hope she's okay. I hate seeing my two best friends so broken because of eachother, but I know they'll get through this.
Charli's Pov
"Looks like we're sleeping over at Addison's tonight."
"What's happened and why can't your sister do it?" She asks
"I don't know anything, but Kate needs us over there tonight."
She nods and we get out of bed and head downstairs.
"Hey mom, can I go sleep over at Allison's house?"
"Honey, it's a school night."
"Mom, shes seems to be having a rough night and I just want to be there for her. Please let me go." I beg.
"Okay, go before I change my mind. Stay safe."
"I will mom. I love you." I call walking out the door.
"Ready to go babe?" Avani asks.
I nod and start making our way to Addison's house.
Dixie's Pov
I heard the door open and shot up from the bed. I made straight eye-contact with the the figure at the door.
"Kate!" I say as she walks in the door.
"Food!" Griffin says.
"You guys are very different people." She laughs.
"Yes we are." I say.
"So now the only reasonable answer is to watch netflix and eat food." He says.
"Agreed."
Addison's Pov
I hadn't been home for long when I heard a knock at the front door. I walked over and opened the door to Avani and Charli standing on my doorstep.
I motioned for them to come in. "There's food on the counter if you guys want some."
Charli shut the door behind them, grabbed some food and walked over to the couch with me.
"Addi, what happened? And don't say it nothing because otherwise my sister would be here. So what happened?" She says in a concerned tone.
"We're not together anymore. She cheated on me. It's fine I should have know she couldn't change. The girl I loved was gone a long time ago."
"Addison- I'm so sorry." Avani pulls me into a hug.
"I just can't believe I fell for it. I really thought I had her back but I was wrong all along. I was in love with with her. I still am." I let a singular tear fall from my eye.
They both just hug me and we eventually get into talking to random things to take my mind off the pain.
A couple hours later
"Hey we should go to sleep its been a long day." Vani suggests.
We all nod and grab blankets. Tonight we were sleeping in the living room I couldn't stand the thought of being alone.
Griffin's Pov
I hear a yawn coming from next to me.
"Hey griff, I'm tired I think its time for you to head home, can you bring Dixie back to her house?" She asks.
"Yeah, of course it's on my way home. Have a goodnight Kate." I pick up a sleeping Dixie in my arms and make my way to the door.
"Goodnight Mrs. Tifford." I say walking to the door.
"Take care of that girl." She says.
"Always." I smile a walk as quickly as I can to my car.
I set her down in the passenger seat and close the door before making my way to the drivers side and getting in.
In about 10 minutes I had arrived at the D'amelio household.
"Okay now just gotta pick her up and get her to her room and then boom. Mission accomplished." I think to myself.
I once again make my way the the other side and pick Dixie back up walking to the front door.
I knock the best I can at the door praying the Marc doesn't answer.
I'll admit I liked the guy at first, but that was when I liked Dixie. Slowly but surely over time I got over her but I really did care for her. I hated the way her father didn't except her and the way he loved me for the fact that I was a man. I mean it really shouldn't matter who his daughter loves. He should love her regardless. I couldn't even imagine treating my kid like that. When Addison and Dixie got together you could genuinely see how happy she was, I had never seen her that way before. And before today, I had never seen her that broken. She loves Addison. I really hope things work out, they're made for eachother. Everyone can see it.
I miss seeing my best friend happy. Even though I wasn't her best friend by a long shot she was definitely mine. Every time I needed someone to talk to she was there for me.
"Griffin! How nice to see you!" I hear a voice ripping me from my thought.
Great Marc.
"Nice to see you too Mr. D'amelio. I'm just coming bring Dixie home she fell asleep when we were hanging out at Kate's earlier." I give him a fake smile.
"Aww, you're such a good boyfriend." He puts an emphasis on the word "boyfriend".
"Yeah that's me. The best boyfriend there is, anyways I'm gonna go put her in her bedroom now." I push past him and cringe at my own sentence.
I walk into her room and lay her down on her bed. I tuck her in and walk back over to the door.
"Goodnight Dixie Jane, and evening though you can't hear me just know, I'm always gonna be here and I'm proud of you. Never stop chasing her. I love you." I turn off the lights a close the door.
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