My Soldier boy

4

Nagising ako sa ringtone ng cellphone ko kaya dali-dali ko itong sinagot

"What? Aga pa, Miguel?" Sagot ko sa tawag ni pangit habang nakapikit

"It's already 9AM. Bumangon ka na at magayos baka maabutan ka pa ng mommy at daddy mo na ganyan ang ayos mo" napakunot ang noo ko at minulat ang isang mata

Nakita kong naka pants pa ko at naka gold fitted cropped spaghetti top pa ko

"Huh?!" naguguluhan kong tanong

"Don't tell me you don't remember anything?" Sabi nito

"I'll call you later" sabi ko at binaba ang tawag

Bumangon ako at hinarap ang full length mirror na nasa pader ng kwarto ko

I'm such a mess! Napatingin ako sa paa kong namumula, sa may tabi ng kama ko andon yung heels ko. Nakita ko naman ang ysl bag ko na nasa sidetable ng kama ko

Bumuntog hininga ako at tinignan ang repleksyon ko salaman, tanginang mukha yan! Mukha akong monster. Na smudge na ang eyeliner at mascara ko

Pumasok na ko sa CR sa kwarto ko at naligo na at nag toothbrush. I made sure na walang trace ng bar kagabi sa katawan ko. Habang naliligo ay inalala ko lahat ng nangyari kagabi, nag bar kami! Oh my gosh! That was my first time! And I had so much fun! Pero hindi ko na alam pano ako nakauwi, I'll ask Miguel about it later

Lumabas na ko at nakitang nag kakape ang parents ko sa dining

"Good morning parentals!" I said ang kissed their cheek

"Wow, ang aga, ah!" my dad joked

After eating breakfast, umalis na parents ko dahil may pupuntahan silang meeting. I ate lunch by myself. Nang maghapon naman ay pumunta ang magkapatid na si Miguel and Marco. Nanonood kami ng cartoons sa couch

"Ano, do you remember what happened?" tanong ni Migs habang kumakain ng popcorn

"I don't remember how we went home" sagot ko "Nagsuka ba ko?" nahihiya kong tanong

"No, you didn't puke. But, damn, you were a pain in the ass" he laughed

"Bakit? Ano nangyari?" I curiously asked. Walang hiya ka Sunshine, pinahiya mo nanaman sarili mo!

"Hmm, you shouldn't ask questions you don't want to know the answer. It's better kung hindi mo alam" tawa nito

"Right! Maiinis nanaman ako sa sarili ko kapag nalaman ko kung pano ko pinahiya sarili ko" iling ko

The days flied too fast, ang bilis ng panahon. One week nalang at aalis na siya. Two weeks siyang nagbakasyon kasama ang family niya. They went to Palawan and Bohol. Bukas ang uwi nila. I kept myself busy, nagaral ako magluto, umalis ako with Heidi (Miguel's cousin and my best friend), at kung ano ano pa.

Hindi niya pa ko binisita paguwi nila, he's probably tired at naintindihan ko naman yon. I hope he had fun, no, I'm sure he had fun and enjoyed.

Kinabukasan, hapon na nang pumunta siya saamin, kasama si Marco. Binigay nila ang pasalubong nila samin. We decided to eat dinner sa labas, si Marco ang pumili kung saan kami kakain, we had pasta and pizza for dinner

"Palawan is so good," sabi nito habang kumakain "Babalik ako dun!"

"Isama mo ko" I laughed

"Oo, syempre! Pagbalik ko doon, ikaw na ang kasama ko" he smiled

I looked at him while he was eating, namimiss ko na agad siya kahit nasa harapan ko pa. my life will be so boring. Wala nang mangiinis sakin, wala nang mang aasar, wala nang tutulong sa assignments ko, wala na akong katawanan. Wala na.

"Did you enjoy, Marco?" I asked Marco

Punong puno ng pagkain ang bibig niya, tumango naman siya at ngumiti "Yes, Ate! You should've come with us!"

"I'll come with you next time"

He giggled

Unconsciously, I started counting all my lasts with him. I hated myself for doing it. Pero hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko. Inalala ko lahat ng lasts naming; last drive thru, last kain sa labas, last gala sa mall, last luto niya para sakin. It hurt. It hurts so much.

Tonight, I'll eat my last dinner with him. Bukas na ang alis niya I tried to prepare myself for this months ago but it was futile, never ako magiging ready para dito. Ngayon palang, ayoko na dumating ang gabi at ayoko magdinner. Pero syempre hindi iyon nangyari kahit yun ang hiniling ko buong araw.

We had dinner at their place

"I'll really miss you, Miguel" My mom said sadly

"I will miss you, too, Mommy" Miguel smiled

Hindi ko alam kung mabilis talaga ang naging dinner naming o dahil wala ako sa sarili ko

"Are you sad?" Tanong ni Miguel habbang nag huhugas kami ng pinggan

"No... I'm happy" sabi ko habang binabanlawan ang mga baso

"You don't look happy, though" he smiled sadly

I smiled at him reassuringly "I'm happy, I'm happy for you. Masaya ako kasi, bukas, you are a step closer to reaching your dreams. Kaya, masayang masaya ako" Pilit kong ngiti, masaya ako dahil maabot niya ang pangarap niya pero malungkot din ako

May inabot siya sakin na paperbag, kinuha koi yon at tinignan ang nasa loob. May isang malaking notebook at maraming pens.

"I want you to write everything there, lahat nang mangyayare sa buhay mo. Para pagnagkita tayo, bibigay mo sakin yan at babasahin ko. Maraming occasion at importanteng events sa buhay mo na wala ako, so for the meantime isulat mo muna jan. Para pagbalik ko, alam ko kung ano nangyari sayo."

"Wow! Ok! Ok!" I replied

"Huwag mong kakalimutan ang mga sinabi ko sayo" he said

I nodded "Oo, ikaw rin, huwag mo kakalimutan mga sinabi ko sayo"

"Always eat on time, huwag magpapalipas ng gutom," seryosos niyang sinabi

"Yes..."

"Don't do anything stupid. Don't do anything I wouldn't do" he warned me

I laughed and nodded

"Do your best in everything that you do" he lectured me

"Sir! Yes, Sir!" sabi ko at sumaldo pa. I laughed and washed the utencils

"I'm serious" Kumunot ang noo niya

"I know, please keep your word, I will keep mine. But, Miguel, why does this feels like goodbye? it feels like I won't see you again?" I asked, he is scaring the shit out of me

"You'll see me again, don't worry" he laughed

"Baka next time na Makita kita, general ka na! General Miguel Brylle Silvestre! Bagay! I'm excited!" masaya kong sabi "Huwag mo kong kakalimutan! Sasapakin kita pag kinalumtan mo ko!"

I support you, Miguel. I'm happy for you. Fly high and catch the stars