CAN I TRUST HIM?

Chapters Of Past

IMPORTANT NOTE- I know I mentioned caella and Samantha being in the same school and caella being aware of that fact but it's not true. caella finds that they were in the same high school now and Samantha is not aware of the fact yet. if you have any doubts or you're confused then text me on Wattpad and ill surely reply. it'll be better if you comment if you're still confused. THANK YOU

"so let me get this straight? you and Rainer are friends now? how's that possible? well who am kidding, people always said there is a thin line between love and hate. oh my god, I can already imagine your wedding. I will be the maid of honor that's for sure." my mouth hung open after I heard her rambling. I cannot believe this woman. I cannot believe she's my best friend.

"chill out woman! I cannot believe you said all of that. How can you conclude our little truce to marriage? no, we are not friends but we certainly are not enemies anymore. I sighed and saw her mock pout and started chuckling.

"at least tell me I will be your maid of honor." she asked pouting and my smile faltered and I realized that I never will have a wedding and I almost told her that but realized that I don't wanna upset her and I seriously don't want to answer all her questions afterward so I smiled and replied-"obviously!"

"oh, I forgot to tell you! I went to my parent's house today when you were showing Rainer around. I didn't have much to do in the office anyway so I went to give them a quick visit. they are turning our garage into an evening game place where they could you know chill out. so the garage was also a kind of storage where they stored all of my childhood things and they wanted to return it to me since I have my apartment now. I told them to give most of the things to charity but I kept this." she handed me a kinda book from her backpack and I realized it was her high school yearbook. I opened it gently, mesmerized by the fact that it was kept so well after all these years. when I found the school name, I was shocked. I and she were in the same school. I dot ever remember talking to her but I was sure we were in the same high school. I just hope that she doesn't recognize me.

"Why are you telling me all this?" I asked and tried not to sound suspicious.

"I don't know. I thought it'll be better if I share this moment with you. I had an amazing high school experience. I had a group of friends and we were invisible to all. we could wear anything and nobody commented." she opened her yearbook and they were a picture of her with her group of friends and they were all doing crazy stuff and laughing their asses off. I laughed when I saw Sam jumping and laughing at the camera. it was beautiful. we turned another page and saw a photo of all the people. "they were all the popular. I know when you think of all the popular you think they were mean and kind of bullies but actually, they were not and when someone bullied or made fun of people the Natalie will always stand up for them. she didn't care and liked her. here she is." she pointed at a girl with black and blue hair. her collarbone tattoo visible. she was smiling and was holding hands with Liam. how do I know that? well because I was Natalie Preston expect that she had black and blue hair and hazel green eyes whereas I have golden blond hair and blue eyes now. nobody knows that. Natalie's aura was different. her personality was incredible but she died. I know it's confusing but ill explain everything later. Sam continued-" now that I look at her and you, I realize that you two look very similar. if I could dye your hair black and blue and buy contact lens for hazel green yes then I am sure you'll look exactly like her." all the blood drained from my face and I became pale after hearing those words. she knows I am sure she knows we are the same. oh god, it cant happen. that's why she is showing me her yearbook. I should have known that. she continued still looking at the photo and not me," but you and she can never be the same. she was wild. dated Liam since kindergarten, went to the wildest parties, did every dare given to her. she did not care what people thought of her. she did not care at all." she stopped and i realized that she was shedding a few tears. I asked-" what happened? why are you crying?"

"I did something horrible to her. something really bad." I was the shocking cause as far as I remember, she did not do anything bad to me. I didn't even recognize her so I asked-"what did you do?"

she looked at me as if asking for my secrecy and confidence and I gave her a nod s if telling her that she can talk to me about anything.

"Natalie was a great person. her whole group was. they weren't just great because they all were hot but also because they all were so nice. Natalie and Liam dated. they were always together. I remember a time when I heard that my parents were broke and they will not be able to pay my college tuition, they were barely able to pay my school fees and the told me to attend a college which they could afford. I always knew that I wanted to be an interior designer and I wanted to go to Pratt. I got admitted cause my sat scores were good enough and my portfolio was too. I was really upset that I will not be able to attend my dream college. so I was crying behind a tree and Liam appeared, he asked me what happened and i knew he didn't know me but still asked. I told him that I did not want to talk about it and he didn't push. we sat here until I stopped crying. I don't know why but I told him why I was so upset. he gave me an idea, he told me to apply for scholarships, and whatever extra money ill need can be given if I do a part-time job. I became so happy. for the next few weeks he helped me get a job and save money from here and there and i instantly fell in love." she stopped talking to take a breath and I took in everything she said. I was shocked obviously, sam loved my ex-boyfriend? it felt weird.

"its okay sam. I am sure she would have forgiven you if she was there. it wasn't your fault, plus you can't control your feelings..." I consoled her and she sniffed.

" that's just not it."

"there's more?"

"my love for Liam became so strong that I started hating Natalie. I just wanted them to break up. I started brainwashing Liam but he would not budge. he became annoyed and told me to never say bad things about Natalie. I was enraged. so I made up a plan. to break them up. I told him to come and meet me I the rooftop and I set up a camera on the rooftop. when he came I confessed my feelings and told him to kiss me. he said no gently saying he loved Natalie but I told him to give me closure and ill never disturb him again. he hesitated but then gave in to kiss me and gave a small and tender kiss on my lips. but then I don know what happened and he kissed me so passionately that I forgot everything about my plan. I lost my virginity that day. after that, he left and he looked so guilty that I could not describe. he told me it was a mistake and cried the whole night at my rooftop. after that, I never saw Liam or Natalie in the school ever after that and that was all my fault." after finishing she sobbed and i could see the guilt in her eyes that I almost blurted out-

I forgive you sam

but I realized that I wasn't Natalie anymore. I didn't know Liam cheated on me. I am glad i didn't. now that I do, I feel it took a little bit of guilt ou of me too. when my father died I came to new york to attend pratt university and job without saying goodbye to anyone and I always felt guilty. now I feel less. i am not enraged now. I can feel why Liam did something like that. he always told me he loved me but I could never say it back. when sam told him that he must've wanted to do something or he must've thought he shouldn't let sam feel the way he always did with me. so forgive him too. it wasn't entirely his fault. when I knew how my parent's marriage was falling apart and horrible my dad became cause he loved mom but mom was always just used to him, was only fond of him, and was comfortable with him but never felt that passion and consuming love towards him and that destroyed my father. so after realizing all of that I could not be in a relationship and Liam must've felt that too. I patted sams shoulder until she cried and fell asleep in my arms o I tucked her in my bed and slept next to her