Bury My Heart

The Woman

She seemed so nice and so beautiful and he seemed to notice very well he says she's a client for his brother Jeff but they had an attraction so thick you couldn't cut it with a knife they looked each other in the eyes so carefully. He didn't seem to notice that I was looking because he was looking at her. I go into the office trying to be professional and calm but I'm shivering scared "hey babe" I say so calmly I surprise myself. I kiss him on his lips but it didn't seem the same as they were before this girl showed up. She's showing a smile at me saying "you must be Katy,Zayn has told me so much about you we go way back" she reaches her hand out to shake mine I just look at it and think if I shake your hand I'm going to break it but I just say "hi" cause those are the only non explicit words I can say to her. But I have to say something else my body is thirsting for more answers,so I say well I haven't heard anything about you but how exactly did you guys meet"? She puts her hand down and opens her mouth to answer but Zayn cuts her off and says "we used to go to high school together this is Jessica Monroe, she just moved back here with her son Jack. "Oh so I guess I'll leave you two alone so you can catch up on some things, Zayn i'll see you at home. "Ok bye Katy honey".

Dear Diary,
I didn't know who she was until today when I saw them two together i wanted to throw up he barely looked at me what am I going to do if this happens again. déjà vu. I might call a meeting with Jessica Monroe who does she think she is. I'm going to talk to Zayn when he comes home.

"what are you talking about Katy there's nothing going on between me and Jessica we are just friends" he says but I don't believe him. "Then how do you guys know each other and I know there's more than just going to high school together so tell me". "fine we went out just in high school but I broke up with her she was cheating on me so she left because she felt bad I guess and got a job got married had a son and when she got divorced she came back so when I figured out that she was back I called her down and I guess I just got overwhelmed with her being there". "Did you two do anything together"? "no" he replied "I've only been with you". "Well I don't like her and I don't think you should hang out with her anymore". "your not my mom" he replied, this shocked me so I said " fine go ahead go out with her and if you find that I'm not home when you come back just know that it's your fault so fine". he tried to adjust his pillow so he can lay down but I was faster "no you can lay on the couch" I said not thinking clearly. "Fine that's how you want to play we can play that game bye". "bye" I replied. I flopped down on the bed and cried myself to sleep.

*the next morning*
I wake up and he's still dozed off on the couch I go to the kitchen and make as much noise as possible to wake him up from his peaceful sleep I slammed pans so I could make breakfast for myself and if he played his cards right and apologized I would make some for him too. I guess my tactic worked because he woke up and came straight to the kitchen. I acted like I didn't notice and got ready to make some pancakes and out of nowhere I heard his voice say "so can we talk". It scared me but I played it cool and said "about what"? He seen right through my little coolness and said "you know what I'm talking about,look Katy don't play dumb you know I love you, right"? "Then act like it"! I yelled out without warning it even shocked me but I was so mad. "What do you mean Katy"? "You won't marry me and yesterday you were just eyeing your ex so how do you expect me to feel"? I don't expect you to feel like nothing but don't get mad at me ... I cut him off "you know what I don't have time for this I have to go to work Zayn BYE".

*At Work*
"You said he was with his ex aww you wouldn't be me I would have beat his ass!" Jade says which makes me laugh which i really needed then. "Yeah" Lynn says. They are the best friends/assistants I could ever have. "Ok but if we don't get to work soon Kyle is going to catch us". "Yeah we know he don't play, bye girl call us if you need us" "Ok" I say. just then Kyle comes in my office and I know it's wrong but he is so cute he's not one of those old guys or even those really young strict guys he's a middle aged widower who has chiseled cheek bones and a to die for smile. "Hi Miss Weller how are you and the Mr. umm what's his name again? "Zayn and your not funny" I laughed. "Ha Zayn" he chuckled. "Well I just came here to tell you that there is a promotion on the line and I think you and your two friends Jade and Lynn are up for the cut. "Really I... I can't believe it I can't wait when"? "It'll start next month and that's only if your up for it". I was so excited I got up and hugged him he looked surprised but he hugged me back then I looked him in his eyes and we kissed.