Bury My Heart

Jessica

Her hair was messed up and i know i didnt do that because it has been at least 3 hours and a pretty woman like that would fix her hair up. "Um can i come in" she says. Her voice was raspy and sounded like she was yelling. She had a little boy with her guessing it was little Zayn he looked just like him. "Arent you supposed to be at home with your fiance"? Then i looked down at the little boy and saw the little boy was crying. I looked at her closer and she had a bruise under her eye and it looked like she was trying to cover it up with makeup but it didnt work. "Whats wrong" i said sounding suddenly concerned. "Zayn kicked us out" she said tearing up. "And he hit my mommy" the little boy said. "ssshhh" she said covering his mouth. What? I remember Zayn having a temper but never hitting anyone i had to ask. "Why" i said quietly. "Because i asked about you" she said hesitantly. "Oh" was all i could say. I slid out the way so they could come in. It was pouring outside so they were soaking wet. "Um well the little one can get cleaned up and dry does he have any clothes"? "Yes i brought some from the house". She said while looking down as if she was ashamed. "Look im sorry that i came over here unexpected its just...that me and my family arent on speaking terms since i had... She looked over at Jack, who was shivering. "Well you should really get him out those wet clothes" i said. I showed them to the bathroom and she was getting the bath ready. I went to my room and had to think about all that happened today. the appointment, the cookout, and now Jessica is at my house? I heard singing in the bathroom. I went by the door and saw Jessica cleaning Jack up and she was singing. She could really sing and Jack seemed to like it. "twinkle twinkle little star how i wonder what you are" they sang together. Then they broke out in laughter. It brought a smile to my face. She got the towel then wrapped him up in it. I went to my room and rubbed my stomach. Hopefully I can have the same relationship with Sarah which is what im going to name my daughter. I heard Jessica say my name and i saw her in the bathroom holding Jack in a towel. "Do you have a room we can sleep in i dont mean to be a burden". "Yeah just down the hall to the left". I say pointing to that direction. I feel sorry for her even though i hate her for taking Zayn and having a son by him but i still have a heart and the most part im sad about is that her son seen it and she has no family to talk to about her problems. She went in the room and stayed in for about 45 minutes and came out in a silk red night gown. She asked can we talk. I said sure. We walked downstairs and i sat on the couch and looked at her she was really pretty i can see why Zayn picked her. She was pacing back and forth and opened her mouth as if she was going to say something but couldnt find the words. i broke the silence. "So what did you want to talk about"? I say foolishly like i didnt know she wanted to talk about the situation. She told me that she was sorry that Zayn left because she didnt know that i was pregnant and that Zayn said that i was crazy so he broke up with me and that she didn't know we were even together. I rolled my eyes at that. She noticed because she sat down and said "You probably dont believe me". i responded "to be honest i really dont you saw me at that office that day when i first met you and you knew me already so all this i didnt know stuff is bullshit to me" i said getting angry. She was silent for a while then finally spoke up and said "He got me pregnant in high school when my family found out they were angry they kicked me out Zayn took me in since he was 18 and i was 16 and he had his own little apartment, i felt like he loved me and when i brought up marriage he would say some day and i got so tired of that he kept saying he had a future ahead of him. One day i came home from working at a restauraunt my feet really hurt and i went home. Zayn was there and i was surprised because he was supposed to be at work and he was drinking. I had never seen him drink before so i asked him what happened he said he had lost his job. I comforted him and everyday i asked him did you find a job and all he said was he couldnt find any. So i snooped around a bit and called his old job and asked why he lost his job and they said fraud and damage and theft of property i couldnt believe it i figured out that he wasnt even looking for jobs he just stayed in the house when i confronted him he got so angry but he didnt hit me. I left and had Jack i never trusted a man ever since and when i seen him again i just couldnt stop smiling and he was so flattering i thought he changed then he told me about you but he told me that he was done with you after that day in the office and i needed a father figure in Jacks life so today when i saw that you were at the cookout i didnt know that you were pregnant".... her voice trailed off. I cant believe it Zayn wasnt anything i hoped he would be not even half. I had to hug her as she was tearing up, but i had to ask. "So what happened tonight" i say. She hesitated before answering. "After you left we left i went home and Jasmine my best friend who was watching Jack was there. We were quiet until I spoke up and asked anout you guys's situation he said "nothing" but i egged him on and we start arguing. I pissed him off when i brung up the lost the job situation and he hit me like i thought he would that day. And i didnt know Jack was there in the doorway until i was on the floor and i saw him. Jasmine grabbed me and Zayn tried to get me but Jasmine pushed him back and made him fall and i grabbed some clothes for us and left and i thought to come over here other than Jasmines because i really wanted to talk to you". "Well i didnt know any of that so i guess i forgive you but i have a question"? "Yeah" "Who invited you to the cookout"? "Lynn Crawford i've known her since high school we used to call her Lizard Lynn cause she had that long tongue"WHAT" i said "so she knew Zayn and everything"! "Yeah she was my best friend till she turned on me".