Bury My Heart

Alone

It's been 2 months since I left Zayn I'm still pissed though I can't get this out of my head even though its been 2 months. I decided to take the job offer from Jack everyone knows about the little angel in my stomach, and my recent breakup. did I forget to mention I'm having a girl. What I've always wanted. Every since Kyle figured out about my baby girl he hasn't really talked to me except to give me hints on the new job. Jade and Lynn have been there for me a lot I told them they were going to be the godmothers. They were happy. I haven't got a call from Zayn since the date and I think he's with that bitch Jessica. He has a son of his own but he's also about to have a daughter in 5 months so he needs to step up. I can't believe he wasn't what I thought he was just a lowdown dirty bastard he is. Ugh I miss him. Aww the baby just kicked.

*At Work*
"Girl are you ok, did you take your pills"? "Yes, I did Jade I took them and I have an appointment at 1:00 which is in 30 minutes so I have to get some work done". I said.

*At the appointment*
"Well your looking healthy so you can leave now Mrs.Weller
"Thank you Dr. Bodey, but i have a question"? "Yes you can ask me anything as long as its about the baby". How do you feel about having an abortion"? I asked not thinking about Jade or Lynn just asking. "Well I think no one should have an abortion because if you sat down and made the baby you can stand up and take responsibilty for raising the child" he says which makes me kind of embarassed for asking. "Plus i wouldnt suggest abortion for you,1. Because you seem like a great person to be a mother. 2. Because you are in your second stage of pregnancy so its not really an option. And 3. Because you have a rare blood type so abortion might lead to something worse than just killing the baby" he says as he cuts his eyes at me which makes me feel bad. What does he mean by "more than just killing the baby"? Does that mean i could die i mean i dont want to have an abortion i just was asking for an opinion. "It was just a suggestion thank you Dr. Bodey" i say as i got up to leave. I left the doctor appointment feeling hungry so i decided to stop at Wendy's. I got my food an ate while i was driving. I went to Jades house for a cookout she was having tonight i was going there to help set up decorations and stuff. I pulled into her driveway and saw a lot of people in her front yard making their way inside the house. I made my into the house and was greeted by Jade's 2 little daughters. "Hi" they said in unison. "Hey you guys" i hugged them. "When are you having your baby" little Joy said. "In November" i reply. "Ooh like my birthday" little Angela said. "Yeah you guys well where is your mom" "In the kitchen" they say. I make my way to the kitchen and see Jade taking macroni out the stove she sets it on the counter and i guess i scared her because she yelled and held her chest. "You scared me Katy" she said. I was laughing to hard to speak but i finally got myself together and said "Im not that ugly,am i"? "No girl come here" she says reaching out for a hug. "So what do you want me to do"? i ask."Well since you need practice, why dont you occupy the kids and set the cake up". i wasnt really offended by what she told me to do i really do need practice so i got the cake and set it on the big table full of food and went outside with all the kids "can we play duck duck goose" one of the kids say. "Sure" i say as i set up the kids to play i see him Zayn and he has the nerve to come here with Jessica. i was staring and i go walk up to them "What are you doing here"? i say angrily. He looked surprised. i asked again "What are you doing here"? he looked down at my stomach and clears his throat "We got invited" he said blankly no louder than a whisper. I looked over at Jessica she looked confused I just wanted to punch her in her dumb ass face. "BY WHO" i yelled causing a scene and everyone start looking but i didnt care i was pissed i couldnt help but yell. "SO YOU LEFT ME PREGNANT FOR THIS WHORE I CANT BELIEVE YOU" I yelled. "What is she talking about"? Jessica said. Zayn looked at me then her "I dont know" he said coldly. "WHAT" was all i said until i start swinging i didnt care at who i just couldnt help it. I felt Jade and Lynn grab me and i had tears streaming down my face. "Calm down its not good for the baby" i heard Lynn say.She was right my head was spinning and it hurt. "How did he get here"? I say. "I dont know" Jade said "i didnt invite him". "Then who did"? "Lets not worry about that right now, the only thing we have to worry about right now is the little one in your stomach and if you keep trying to fight like that then your not going to have one". Jade said and thats why i love her she was my best friend since 2nd grade and then we met Lynn in 4th grade. So i got up and said goodbye to everyone and had to leave. I got in the car, wiped my tears and left.

*At the house*
I got in the house and poured a nice hot bath. Good thing i dont have work tommorrow so i can just relax. Then I put on my robe and went to the door thinking it was either Jade or Lynn but when i opened it it wasnt anyone i hoped it would be. Jessica.

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Sorry readers i havent updated in a while i was going through an issue so i hope you enjoy this chapter and i promise im going to update sooner so bye and inbox if you want me to do something