Bury My Heart

The Appointment

I wake up feeling groggy and I feel like I have to throw up again but I can't I get up after I call the doctor to set an appointment at 12:00 pm so I fix myself something to eat and get in the shower and get dressed by the time I'm done it is 11:45 and the office is about 10 minutes away so I kiss Zayn and grab my keys and leave.

*At the Appointment*
I wait in the lobby for 5 minutes and then they call my name so I go back there Mr. Martin says "so what seems to be wrong Miss Weller so I tell him that I've been throwing up a lot and I wake up feeling groggy a lot so I just want to know what's wrong. "Well I'll take some test and we'll see what's wrong right away it should take no more than 15 minutes ok"? "ok". So I wait till he comes back with my phone in my hand and he comes back around 15 minutes later and says "well we see the problem you Miss Weller are having a baby and you are 2 months pregnant. "What"!? I was so shocked and sad because if there's one thing about Zayn he doesn't want babies because he has a backstory to where we can just say he doesn't really like kids. I went out the office cool but as soon as I got into the car I broke down crying I couldn't take it what am I going to do? I'm not telling him I can't but I have to but how am I going to tell him maybe I just shouldn't I have to go home and get some rest.

*at the house*
I come in and everything's quiet Zayn must be sleep I decided to just go to bed and take a nap. I go in the room and lay down as soon as I do Zayn wakes up and says "how did it go babe" "ok" I reply turning from his gaze. "well are you alright" he says and climbs behind me I move up and say "yeah" "well ok then attitude much" he says and gets up to go watch tv. My eyes follow him and they start watering i sniffled. Why me?