The Place I Really Belong (When He Realized Series 1)

CHAPTER 16

Balcony

The days after my dress fitting are so boring since I don’t have anything to do on the preparations for the upcoming wedding. I tried to talk about it to Lucas but he really won’t let me go back to work. He sometimes let me come with him to his office at talagang certified tambay lang ako doon habang may mga meeting siya.

His employees already know about me as his fiancé. His executive assistant told me that most of the employees are shocked when they knew about it and I understand that. They thought of me as his new executive assistant and then ngayon nakikita nila ako na kasa-kasama ni Lucas as his fiancé.

Sometimes I would spend my days with the girls and of course with Eron. Lucas will just pick me up there from his work when I forgot about the time and we’ll have dinner outside together. Minsan naman I go home early so I can prepare dinner for us before he comes home.

We really look and act like a real couple. It's just like everything we do is natural for us. I told myself I should get a hold of myself whenever he’s around but my self is giving in to him easily because of his own ways.

Maybe this is what you can call ‘suicide’. I am letting myself get hurt and be drowned to my feelings for him. Even I, don’t know how to stop my heart beating erratically for him.
I guess I just gotta enjoy this fake relationship we have. Hindi pwedeng siya lang ang masaya, I should make myself happy as well. #Saya ngayon, iyak later.

Funny how I told myself that I won’t fall for someone like him pero here I am, can’t even control my own feelings. Hindi mo talaga dapat pinapangunahan ang lahat ng bagay since you wouldn’t know what will happen and what’s the story prepared for you.

Kahit ilang beses ko pang ipagpilitan na wala akong nararamdaman sa kanya, na all of this is just an infatuation, na hindi pwede. In the end alam kong niloloko ko lang ng niloloko ang sarili ko sa hindi pag tanggap ng katotohanan.

I let my guard down, I let him shatter the wall, I let him enter my life easily. Naging kampante ako na he’s just a phase I have to walk through just like the phase I had before. I didn’t expect him to have this kind of effect to me.

The foreign feelings he can give me, the things he do to me, the words he say, the care he’s showing me, the smile and look he is giving me. All of it. Hinahanap hanap na ng sarili ko lahat ng ginagawa niya. Lahat ng minarka niya sa isip at puso ko na siya lang ang may kakayahang gawin sa akin.

“What’s going on inside that pretty head of yours, hmm?”

We are now inside their limousine and heading back to their mansion here in Milan. It’s been a week already since we’ve been here in Italy and for the past days that we’re here, we have been able to travel a lot. He’s spoiling me in everything luxurious to be honest and I was so overwhelmed. This man’s really showing off his riches and scrubbing it right into my face!

“Nothing” I answered as I looked outside the window.

He motioned my head to lean on his shoulder and his left hand stays on my left cheek, securing my head not to fall.

Our families and friends will arrive tomorrow morning. Nauna lang kami because he wants me to enjoy Italy before the wedding. Traditional wedding pa rin naman ang mangyayari so expected na namin ni Lucas na puro pamahiin ang maririnig namin bukas. And the day after tomorrow will be the day. Our wedding day.

I’m actually excited to see the place and the arrangements. Well, I bet everything would be arranged perfectly just like what is planned.

“Do we have to prepare our own vows?” I asked him without moving my head from his shoulder