Sanem and Can- A new Story

Part 21 I will never love again!!

Leyla POV 

It is such a liberating experience to be standing independent and still it can be overwhelming and scary at the same time! The freedom comes along with the an acute sense of responsibility of ones own life. Being all on your own thoroughly makes me miss the companionship of my mother and Sanem. Now with Sanem married I can't be much with her and with me here in Sydney and mom back home, I miss the warmth and love of her hugs and scolds! Its been smooth with joining the University and even making a few friends. Sanem as usual was my support system and Can has been  like a pillar standing for us,  he is the the most supportive brother  any sister could ask for.  I can see Sanem has already fallen for him and its good to know that she is happy, especially knowing what a rebel she can be if forced to do something she doesn't agree on, and with the fact that baba forced her to marry Can, it a relief to know Can is supportive and caring towards Sanem.  He is such an angel, although I cannot say that about his brother Emre!!!!! He turned to be totally another side of the spectrum compared to Can.  I thought he would be different  compared to baba but no he too decided to make decisions of my life without asking me and then he says he loves me!! Does he even know what love is??  Anyways why am I even thinking of him, I have decided to the past behind and start afresh, that's what I am doing , so I shouldn't even bother to think! 

Abla!! Ceycey voice breaks my train of thoughts.

You haven't eaten anything, come on eat up and then  I will reach you to your workplace and then head to mine; He rambled on all the while munching on his toast.

Evet, today Daren told me that the financial head has been appointed and he is arriving today. I better not be late, it sure won't create a good impression, tamam; I say as I hurry up not to be late for work

Abla, your work speaks for itself , don't bother about impressions; Ceycey gave me his philosophical advise

Tamam; I said obviously hurrying up.

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After Ceycey reached me at my workplace,  I walked towards the entrance of the building,  getting closer I couldn't believe my eyes! Walking up and down the pathway frantically, was Tarik! 

Leyla! Tarik spied me quickly before I couldn't even think to run away, but it was of no use it seemed that my legs deceived me by staying stuck to the ground.

What are you doing here Tarik?  I asked clearly shocked

I came to meet you, I want to talk to you Leyla! Oh God how much I missed you!! Tarik said hugging me as I immediately pushed him away.

You decided what you wanted! You decided the fate of  our relationship! You decided without my concern, without knowing what I want or how I would feel and now you decide to walk back into my life, just like that!! I spoke firmly 

Leyla I know out of anger I made a mistake, I know I made the decisions the wrong way! I am sorry, I shouldn't have left you; Tarik tried to get the hold of my palm which I pulled away in anger.

I am sorry, love; Tarik spoke but I stopped him

Enough, I am not your love anymore! Don't call me that, it means nothing!  You showed me how much I have value in your life, nothing can change now!! I spoke walking away

Then why did you come to Sydney? Sanem told you I was here and you came! I know you love me still Leyla!! Tarik words halted my steps

Make one thing very clear in your head Tarik! I did not come to Sydney for you!! You are and will remain my past of which I do not see any future in it!! It is a mere coincidence that we are in the same city, nothing more! I say looking straight into his eyes with a new found strength.