Arthur's return

Lost hope

Hi so this is my first story that I've ever written I'm so sorry if it's not that good
There is a tiny bit of angst but the rest is mainly fluff and possibly some smut. I will try and update it as soon as possible as I have loads of ideas.
Hope you like it :)

2000 years, that's how long merlin had been waiting or to be exact 2000 years 47 days 21 hours. Merlin, once the great warlock Emrys, No longer believing he deserved that title.

Merlin lived well, he had built a two story house with a small Pier where he had a boat that he rarely used at the side of lake Avalon just to be sure that he is there if Arthur returns. He owned a small bookstore in town. He had found a benefit of living for 2000 years which was that he had tons of money stored, he had been saving since he left Camelot, so if he wanted to he could shut down his bookstore and live well for ages, but he liked working, it kept him busy from thinking too much about the great loss he has had to endure over the years, however when he had a chance to be alone with his thoughts nothing ended well.

One stormy night in mid January he found himself at the end of his pier sobbing.
*merlin P.O.V*
It is slashing it down with rain but I didn't care, I can't feel it, I can't feel anything anymore, I have lived through so much pain and death, back in Camelot I watched all my loved ones fade away, Gwen, the knights, my mother, and giaus, after that I wanted nothing more than Arthur to return, hoping that he won't leave him as all of the others did. I lived through wars and watched friends die in my arms.
I had tears streaming down my face, my throat closing up causing me to cough and choke on my own breath, "Arthur please, please I can't do this anymore, I..I.. can't I just can't, I need you so much" he croaked out as a small whisper. "What am i even doing? I'm talking to a FUCKING LAKE!! HES NOT COMING BACK, WHY WOULD HE? HE DIDNT WHEN WARS BROKE OUT SO WHY WOULD HE NOW!!!!!" He slammed his fists on the shabby wood that he sat on, his shaking hands now bleeding but he didn't care. Merlin couldn't see any other way out of this misery, he slowly stood up, "d..don't worry a..arth..ur I'm going to join you" he said through sobs, tears now burning his eyes. He turned around to find some big rocks and picked them up then turned back towards the lake. "S..see you s...soon clot pole" and with a slight smile he jumped into the lake, letting the rocks weigh him down. He screams under water in frustration hoping it will help him loose air quicker. Slowly he started seeing black as his eyes fluttered shut, 'peace at last, i will be with Arthur again' he thought just as he took in the last view of the lake bed.

Merlin woke up on the pier with a splitting headache, "curse this stupid magic, of course it had to save me, I mean nothing else could of!"
"Ahem" a familier voice said behind him. 'He couldn't be, it can't possibly be him? Could it?!' Merlin thought as his entire body froze in place not believing his own ears. Only then when he felt a hand on his shoulder did he jump back in shock, immediately tears streaming down his face as he watched his best friend kneel down in front of him. "Hi merlin.. or shall I say complete idiot" Arthur said with a small smile whilst tears also starting to fall from his eyes.