That Girl

Episode 20: Too much burden

Its been days since I talked to my Real Father, and since then I have been suffering more.

I asked myself a lot, Questions that I couldn't answer for myself. Hirap na hirap nako.

Hindi nako pumapasok, kasi hindi ko kayang umakto na para bang okay lang ako. Kahit nakakahiya kinulong ko sarili sa bahay nila Ronn.

Papasok na sana ako sa kwarto ni Ronn pero hindi pako nakapasok na pansin ko na nakakarating na pala siya galing school at andun din si Tita Dan kausap sya.

"I know that you really love her Davy, but you can't just drag yourself into the mess too" sabi ni Tita,

"I love Lycian too, para ko narin s'yang anak Davy and I am trying to help her too sa abot ng makakaya ko. And as for you, anak kita at magulang mo ako I worry about you too, bumababa na yung grades mo and you seem very troubled, Lycian wont be happy if you'd make yourself a mess too"

I didn't know that Ronn is having a hard time because of me, I'm too much burden to him. Sa dami ng mga nangyari nakalimotan ko ng isipin na sobra na pala akong nakaka-abala.

Magsasalita na sana si Ronn, pero hindi ko sinasadyang matulak ang pinto kasi nanghina ako sa naisip ko.

He stared at me in shock, he looked very worried.

"I'm sorry Dabi, I didn't know. I don't want to ruined you too" sabi ko.

I heard Ronn called out my name pero tumakbo nako palabas ng bahay nila, nahihiya na talaga ako at parang buhat ko na lahat ng sakit sa mundo.

Pati ba ang taong mahal ko at minahal ako masasaktan at masisira dahil sakin!?

Sa dami ng tumatakbo sa isip ko nakarating ako sa bahay namin. For weeks I have tried to be strong pero ang hirap na, I need Mom.

Pagkapasok ko samin ang linis ng bahay at ang tahimik pa.

"MOM" I cried out for her.

"Mom, please I need you" I cried out again kasi hindi sya lumabas.

Nakaupo nako sa sahig namin dahil nanghihina na talaga ako kakaiyak.

"Cian" I looked up para malaman kung sino tumawag sakin, It wasn't Mom. It was our house helper.