♡Tessa and Hardin♠️ The day he saw my underwear

Chapter 27

We sit in silence for a minute or two

H: what about your Job interview or your mum?
I honestly haven't thought about them..
T: Ill just look for another Job
I say and reach out for his hand
T: and my mom doesn't even know I exist anymore..

As much as that hurts to admit its the inevitable

He now looks at me unsure for a second
T: I cant be here anymore.. especially after tonight
I pause trying to read his face, he's staring out into the distance
T: say something

He looks over at me
H: Tessa you know I love you with all my heart, and I want nothing more than to live with you and have a future with you, but I cant just leave my mum alone
I feel my heart sink and my throat close, I look at him understandably
and nod my head, he looks down and the car is filled with silence once again, im about to say something but he beats me to it
H: I know that makes me the worst boyfriend ever im so sorry Tessa, the last thing I want to do is hurt you again
I shake my head at him
T: dont say that, this doesn't make you a bad boyfriend Hardin.. she's your mother, I get it, I honestly shouldn't be bailing on my own...
I flash a weak smile and wrap my fingers through his hair
T: I love you so much
I feel a hot tear roll down my cheek
T: which is why it makes this so much harder
He quickly looks at me eyebrows drawn forward
H: what do you mean? make what harder?

T: Im still leaving Hardin, im not safe here anymore
H: you are when your with me. move in with me and mum, she wont care she loves you
I see the hope in his eyes
I look at him, I feel an ache in my chest, I can either stay for Hardin, or leave for me.
H: Tessa?

I feel more tears swell up as they fall simultaneously one after the other
T: hardin..
I say barely over a whisper
T: im sorry... I cant stay

His face drops at my words, I feel so bad I just need everything to stop

T: if I cant live freely in my hometown without the worry of being video tapped by a crazy ex, or getting drugged and raped at a party, or even being in my home cause there's a crazy psychopath who knows where I live and wants to kill me or do God knows what, then I need to get tf out
I say calmly
He gives me a sad look and nods
H: so where does this leave us?
his voice cracks, I feel my heart shatter for the millionth time
T: I... I dont know
I say honestly

I space out reminiscing the time we first met... we were so happy, even after my mom's diagnosis.. he always knew how to make me laugh, he truly wanted the best for me, and I him.

H: lets talk about this in the morning
He says opening his door and slamming it shut, I sit there a little shocked to see him come over to my side and open the door for me

We walk inside and Hardin heads straight up the stairs, I sigh and follow him

I walk in his room and he's already laying on the bed staring at the ceiling, I go to his closet and grab a black long sleeve shirt

I walk into the bathroom that's connected to his room, I change and brush my teeth, I stand infront of the mirror and think back to earlier tonight, I havent really processed it yet, it's what pushed me over the edge in the first place..

I walk out and see Hardin laying on his side, I cant tell if he's asleep or not so I just climb in on the other side, I make sure to face him even though his back is facing me.
T: Hardin
I whisper, nothing

I stare at his back for God knows how long before I feel my eyes slowly close, they shoot back open once I hear a sniffle, I dismiss it and close my eyes again
I hear it again but much quieter

I open my eyes again after hearing it two more times

I slowly sit up keeping my eyes on Hardin, I reach out and gently touch his shoulder
T: Hardin...
I feel him roll over to look at me
is he crying? oh shit he's crying

T: hey whats wrong?
Im now on my knees and I move closer to him and grab his face, I move a piece of hair from his forehead and trace my fingers up and down the side of his face
H: I dont want to break up
I see the pain behind the tears pooling in his eyes, and I can hear how hurt he is

My heart breaks as I embrace him in my arms, I grab his face and kiss the tear that was rolling past his lip

What do I say... I dont want to break up either but.. I cant stay here, but he also shouldn't feel like he has to pack up his bags and leave everything behind just because my life is shit, That would make me a bad girlfriend..

I think about every possible thing we can do, then it hits me, why didn't I think of this before?
T: what if we dont have to break up
I say hopefully, his face lights up
T: what time does your mom get off of work

H: she's working night shift so she wont be home till tomorrow morning, why?
I wipe the remaining tears off of his face with my thumb
T: what if we talked to her about this, see what she says
I look into his eyes hoping he agrees

After what feels like forever he finally says something
H: okay
he says nodding, I get excited and climb on top of him and squeeze him till he cant breathe
I loosen my grip as im still on him, he has the cutest smile on his face

He looks at me and plays with my hair

T: promise me no matter what happens, we will always have each other

I grab his hand and intertwine our fingers

H: I promise. its you and me forever

I kiss him and lay my head on his chest as he wraps his arms around me
I listen to his heart beat as I drift off to sleep

I wonder how I should end this?