𝔸 ℝ𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕀𝕟 𝔸 𝔾𝕒𝕣𝕕𝕖𝕟 𝕆𝕗 𝕋𝕙𝕠𝕣𝕟𝕤 (ℂ𝕙𝕚𝕊𝕙𝕚𝕘)

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟷: 𝙼𝚢 𝚂𝚞𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎

Warning: Suicide attempt, Depression, Self Harm

The cold wind felt good on my sweat covered forehead.

I was on a large bridge, writing a note. But it wasn't just any note of course.

It was my Suicide note.

Everybody thought I was fine. Everyone never suspected a thing. The guy who always smiled and made everyone laugh was actually just a broken mess.

I can't remember the last time I felt actually happy. Even when I was a kid I wasn't exactly happy.

All I've ever been good for was making other people happy. But, I'm done now. I don't want to be sad anymore.

The pain... it just isn't worth it. I can't live like this anymore.

I can't.

I continued writing the letter. It had to be perfect. Once I finished writing it I let out a worn out sigh.

I could finally leave now.

I can finally be free.

My note contained of a bunch of things that people have done for me. I thanked all my friends and family, well the ones who actually cared about me.

On the back of the note, I put promises I made. Some I finished, some I didn't.

I made sure to apologize to the people I promised but never completed. But, it's okay. They weren't that important anyway.

Slowly, I took off the black jacket I had on leaving myself in just a long sleeved black t-shirt and black jeans. The cold wind blew on the back of my neck causing shiver after shiver to run down my spine.

I stepped up onto the ledge of the tall bridge. I glanced down and realized how far up I was. My legs began to tremble and I immediately wanted to get away from the edge, but I didn't.

There was no turning back now.

I gently slid the note into my pocket as I thought about how people would react to finding it in my dead bodies pant pocket. How would my no good father react? Would he even care?

A small sigh escaped my mouth. I then remembered that I made sure to talk about him in my note. Now, everyone will know how horrible he is. Maybe Hana will be able to get away from him.

Hana...

I quickly stopped myself from thinking about her more. I wasn't going to back down from this. I was ready.

I slowly rolled up my sleeves to get one last good look at my scars. They were still bleeding. The cuts were deep and hurt like crazy.

But, oh well. This is the last time I'll see all of this shit again.

I took one last deep inhale of air before relaxing. I was scared. But, I couldn't back away. I had to do it. Now was the perfect time.

Slowly, I stepped even closer to the edge.

Just before I jumped, I said one last thing.

"Good luck, Hana-chan."