Total Harmony [Under Construction]

Six~ Together Forever?

So, I was thinking,” Lennox begins, setting down the pictures he was looking at.

Interrupting, I say, “Ooh, that’s got to be something. I mean, you thinking, that’s either a really good thing or really bad. Let’s hope it’s good.” I give him a thumbs up.

“Well, seen as I have a kid now, I guess my Mom needs to know she’s a grandmother.”

“Yep, I guess so.”

Lennox and I are both sitting at the breakfast bar in the kitchen. We decided that since we can’t go outside, we’ll just make do what we have here. Lennox and I are both rooting through some old boxes we took down from the attic. We’re looking for any pictures of me when I was younger. I even had some pictures of him, his mother Susanne gave me, that I’m sure I can use in my project for him. As of pictures of him now, I just google his name and surely they’ll be there. Then there’s a couple of years ago. Well, the only ones I have would be us together. I don’t know if I can look at them and not be pained.

I realise that Lennox has just said something and I failed to hear him.  “What?”

He is looking back down at the bundle of pictures in his hands. “This is you, I said. When you just had Jake? At the hospital?”

He turns the picture around showing me. It’s a picture of me, looking quite sickly, might I add, but smiling nevertheless, at a little baby wrapped in a soft blue blanket.

I nod my head. “Yeah, it is.”

He smiles sadly. “I wish I had been there.”

I am about to say, ‘me too’ but I catch myself before I do. That would not be good. We’d probably get in another fight over the fact that he could have been there, had I just told him I was pregnant. Lennox and I never fought when we were together, though.

“No, you don’t. It was horrendous. Even my mother couldn’t stay with me.” I grimace.

“Still.”

I try to steer away from the topic, then remember he was talking about telling his Mom about Jake. “So, you were talking about your Mom…? Then you just, kind of…”

“Um, yeah. So, do how about I ring her, tell her I’m coming over for dinner and you’re coming too? You know, she loves you. She’s always asking about you. Of course, neither Kat nor I know anything. Sure, Kat sees you in school, but you’re not friends anymore. Did you stop being friends when I left?” I nod my head but don’t speak. “Of course.” He grimaces. “I’m sorry that happened. You two were such good friends. Then I came along and kind of took you from her. I really should apologise for that…” He trails off.

It’s true. Kat Taylor and I were once best friends. I was better friends with her than I was with Jade and Jen. The twins only moved over here when we were thirteen. Up until then, it was just Kat and I.

Kat and I used to do everything together. And she also practically live in my house. We were never in her house because, and I quote back from my nine year old self, ‘she has two smelly brothers’. Of course, I didn’t, and still don’t, have any siblings. That made it a better place to have sleepovers. We would stay up all night, straining our eyes watching a heap of TV. We would stay up so late that there would only be an hour or so to sleep. Or else, we would sleep during the day, like we were from a different time zone, having not adjusted to the one here yet.

I come out of my reverie. “Um, yeah, maybe. I guess I also need to apologise too.”

“Hmm, yeah. I guess so.”

“Mommy, Mommy,” I hear Jake calling me. He comes barrelling into the room, smiling happily. “Mommy, they’re gone.” He whoops.

I smile back. “That’s good. Although you shouldn’t be looking out the window, Little Man.”