𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐲𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 | 𝐎𝐓𝟕 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝟑𝟗 - 𝐏𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐬

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐲𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 | 𝐓𝐚𝐞𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐠 | 𝐏𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐬

'Christmas is coming up, I wonder what I should get her.'

I trudged past the living room to go to my room and saw (Y/N) and Yoongi getting really close. To be honest, I envied the other boys. They could be as close as they wanted with (Y/N) without dreadful memories and dirty thoughts popping up in their minds.

I shuffled into my room with the hard plastic cup with water in my hands, and sat down at my easel, and began placing colors on the white canvas in front of me. My hands worked with the small and large brushes to remake the one individual in my mind.

I smeared the colors together to make her delicate skin; I tapped on the brushes to make her charming freckles and the one mole that stood out; I mixed and mixed paints to get her hair color accurate.

But, even if I try to paint her, it's not the real her. My room was filled with various sizes of canvas perfectly coated with her face on them. No matter how many times I painted, sculpt, or drew her, it wouldn't occupy the hollow hole in my chest.

I stopped making anything that wasn't her; I stopped doing commissions; I stopped entering my creations into the art gallery downtown.

When I looked at her, all I could think of was all the dirty things I could do to her, I was no longer in heat; it ended a long time ago, but why am I having all these thoughts about her. I couldn't get her out of my head, but I had no right to tell her my feelings.

"Taehyung! I need to borrow your red marker!"

Jimin yelled out from the other side of my door and sounded like he was trying the break it down the door with his dainty fist.

"Hang on!"

I grabbed as many portraits of (Y/N) as I could and hid them, but Jimin was exactly the most patient person out of the boys and barged right into my room and looked around my room in concern.

"I-... so this is why you haven't been sending out art?"

"Jimin, it's not what it looks like." Jimin had the worst habit of making assumptions, and outrages ones at that. "Look, I've just had an art block, so I hoped that making something else would help."

"Tae, why don't you just tell her already. I mean, you're literally going crazy just keeping it in."

I laid down the canvasses that were still in my arms and sat down on my bed, Jimin soon joining me as we talked.

"Why didn't you tell me that you suffering like this? You only paint like this if you have an awful dream." Jimin added.

He was right, if I had a nightmare about something, I would make a piece of the place or people of the dream. I've been having terrible dreams about (Y/N) for a month now.

I would normally talk to Jimin if something was troubling me and he would do the same, but (Y/N) was a complex topic. I know that Jimin also likes her; I don't want to start a fight or argument about the night where I attacked (Y/N) or about all the things I could do to (Y/N).

It would be better if I just kept it to myself.

"Taehyung, please answer me." Jimin placed his small hand on my back.

"You have feelings for her too and I still feel guilty! That's why I haven't told her!"

I tried to wipe the tear that escaped before Jimin saw it, but of course, Jimin was someone who noticed things like that; he noticed when people were wallowing in depression and needed help. It just so happened to be me.

"Please tell her, don't think about me. Your happiness is also important, I know how much you like to give up on things for others."

Jimin wrapped his arms around me.

"I will only confess if you also, everyone can have an equal chance."

-

Jimin dragged me down the livingroom where Yoongi and (Y/N) were sitting watching a new show that I wanted to watch with (Y/N).

"(Y/N), me and Taehyung have something to tell you." Jimin started.

She looked up, her eyes were much better in person than the flat canvas. That was something that I could never replicate.

"We have feelings for you, and we hope to be by your side for as lon-g as we can." I fumbled on a word but was able to get it out.

I could feel my face heat up, but it felt kinda nice. But the harsh glare from Yoongi did not.

_bbbletae I was able to get two good pictures of him before he got up and shoved his nose onto my phone. He was definitely shocked that I was taking photos of him.