Confessions

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Luke glanced over at Ashton who was silent and staring off into space. He then turned to find Calum standing at the door, looking down and jaw clenched, hands dangling at his side.

All the boys were quiet and content. Ashton had noticed that Michael wasn't there. Luke was staring at Calum. Well, more like stealing glances. Calum had decided to sit at a table in front of Michaels. His head was down and he was holding his head up with his hand, elbow resting on the table. Ashton started thumping his hands on the edge of his chair to a beat he once heard.

After managing to eat, they all stood up, at different times, and walked silently back to their rooms. When Ashton got to his room Luke was laying on the bed with his headphones in. After about fifteen minutes he sat up and looked at Ashton.
"Ashton, what's wrong?" Luke says this while fidgeting his thumbs. Ashton watched.
"Nothing." he says

At midnight Calum is asleep, thinking of how Michael copes with the anorexia. He doesn't know about the schizophrenia that makes him suffer.. How horrible it must be to have to live with it! But Calum nor any of the other boys knows just how bad it is.

It's one and Luke and Ashton are awake talking about nothing of importance. They talk just to bring comfort to themselves.
"Want to tell secrets?" Ashton says quietly and cheekily.
"Uh I guess.." Luke says while biting his lip.
Ashton tells Luke he can go first, they both sit there and think of all of their esters and which ones aren't important so they can tell each other them.
"Okay, don't tell anyone okay?" Luke says, he had trust issues and he didn't know if he should trust Ashton. Ashton makes a cross over his heart and nods.
"I have a crush on someone in this hospital, asylum, hell place.." Luke says. He's trusting Ashton. He's trusting him. Ashton ponders on this newly stated secret.
"Who?" Ashton says with a grin, he sits back against the head bored and looks at Luke who is sitting at the end of Ashton's bed. Lukes chest rises and falls fast then he says it quickly.
"IlikeCalumpleasedonttellhim!" His eyes are wide and mouth sewn shut.
Ashton smiles and makes a kissy face at Luke.

By two in the morning they look like ragdolls. Ashton is laying across the floor by the door and Luke is sleeping with his feet against the wall and head hanging off the bed.

When Ashton wakes up he goes to Calum's room, he peeks into the long window on the door and sees him looking out the bared window. He knocks on the door which makes Calum jump. Ashton smiles and watches Calum move towards the door and opens it.
"Yea?" Calum says, his voice is like caramel, no wonder Luke likes this guy.
"Wanna come to our room?" Ashton says with a grin. Calum looks back at Michael, his eyes filled with something that Ashton didn't recognize. Surely wasn't hate, Ashton knows enough of what the looks like.

The two boys walks back to Luke and Ashton's room.
"I'll be right back!" Ashton says. Luke stares at him with fury and confusion in his eyes. The Curley haired boy smiles and winks when Calum isn't looking.

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