Have you ever invested in someone so much that it costs all of you?
Cause me? I did.
Before all of this mess. We were best of friends, we had each other backs, we were partners in crime, and we're each other's shoulder to cry on.
We're almost brothers... Its just that, I saw him more than just a brother, I saw him as a man, the man of my dreams.
Until one day, he asked me an "Impossible" request.
"Hey bro, I really like her. Can you help me court her? Please? Please? Please?"
I was taken aback. I felt my heart tearing up into pieces, but because I am a Stupid Lovesick Fool.
"S-sure.. What are friends for?"
I helped in courting. From their cuddly public surprises to private dates
Until finally, she said yes. And from that time on... He slowly drifted from me.
My warm, caring, one call away bestfriend turned into cold, neglecting distant friend who only needs me whenever he's going to surprise her or...
...Or when they fight over her gold digging schemes.
Yes. I admit. I rejoice when they fight. Cause he spends more time with me-- seeking advices and fixing his broken heart.
But whenever he's fixed. He'll just leave me like a tool.
And stupid me for hanging in there for frigging 3 years. See how stupid lovesick fool I am?
But when a problem strike me?
"Sorry bro. I'm on a movie with my girlfriend,"
"Sorry bro. We're going shopping today,"
"Sorry bro. *insert reasons here*,"
Is it selfish for me to ask him to give me some time? Even though just as friends?
And as you know. Even a stainless steel tool breaks.
I tried to fix myself, ammend that disheveled rope to lengthen my time with him.
Yes. I badly want to be with him. Hoping that one day, he will see me as a lover, not just as a friend.
But I guess I can't lengthen my time that much. Cause that rope of positivity and hope-- where I hang-- snapped
And now I am falling from cloud nine into the depths of the ocean of misery and agony.
I guess being selfish isn't that bad afterall...
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John Marco Cervinio
