Of Dreams And Desolation

No one

Nightmares,
It wasn't real.
Snap out of it,
Stop being surreal.

Panic attack,
For a few seconds it stayed.
Blacking my vision,
My breathing, as it erased.

Anxiety,
It just swallowed me whole.
Pain?
Just left it's mark on my soul.

Cut myself?
Nah. It's just a bloody scratch.
And if you ask me about the mark?
I'll probably say it's a cat.

Don't call me beautiful.
Until you've seen my scars.
You've never seen me starve myself,
Until I see the stars.

But it's okay though,
As you probably think it's a lie.
And no one could help,
Because you think I'm begging attention,
And these excuses you won't buy.

I'll just let the pain swallow me,
Until there's left none.
And one day who knows I might die,
Fading away like no one.

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I just heard a new song that was a little sad? And man I cried for hours😂
Lol I'm sensitive 😂
Quick advice- don't want people to know your inner feelings? Talk with humour. I swear no one will know you cried like 2 hours ago😂

Lots of love💓
Suhani🤓