Dear you

is struggle part of growth ?

Hi,You
It's been past a year and i still miss you. I heard about how your boyfriend became verbally abusive towards you. Our friend L is concerned and i am too. This made me hate your boyfriend even more, i wish you could know your worth and leave his controlling ass. Go live your dreams ! Go study abroad, go work to Disneyland like you wanted to. Please don't listen to him. Please know you're not a piece of shit, please know you're not dumb or useless.
Please remember how he cut me from your life and how I couldn't do a single thing to save our friendship. He totally won here. He waited for it, im sure. And our friends are sure too.

Please, acknowledge how manipulative he is ! He harassed us for ten months until you finally accepted to go out with him. He acted supportive in front of you when you had your family issues, but you and i know how selfish he was. You just KNOW how you couldn't tell him no. And since them he made you skip our weekly lunch together. He insulted your friends. He knew you didn't like my boyfriend and as we say in french, « il en a rajouté une couche ». He waited for us to be angry enough. And when i told you how it made me sad, and when i was BEGGING you to be the friend I knew before him, he told me to stop talking to you.

I hope he'll rot in hell.

Well, sorry about ranting again about how i hate him. But im genuinely concerned because I just know he waited for you to be in a very dark place to harass you and buy you countless gifts and bake you countless cakes so you accepted his love. At least he's determined. But i was excepting him to treat you with at least a bit of basic human decency.
And it pisses me off because i can't even tell you how WRONG he is when he insults you. I can't even tell you to live your dreams. You may say it's a bit hypocritical, coming from me, because i decided staying here in our country to become a teacher was the best to keep a healthy relationship with my boyfriend, even though i wanted to move to Canada and work in tourism business or hotel industry or as a stewardess.

But there is a difference here. It was my choice to stay here. And I know my boyfriend  would have been supportive of my choice no matter what. I know you want to travel the world and your studies give you the perfect opportunity to do so. But please, don't abandon those dreams because a childish boy decided you'll stay home with him. Please make decisions for you. Please don't feel forced to stay here and not travel. Do what you want, and think about what will make you happy in the long run.

I miss you. I lost you, my best friend in the entire world, so please at least live a happy life