It's a forever type of love

𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝗶𝘅

It was Thursday afternoon, the day before Zoe's graduation and I was just packing my bag because I was leaving for New York in a few hours since that's where Zoe goes to school.
I heard a knock on my door and I immediately knew it was Shana so I went downstairs and I opened my door and I was right, it was Shana and she looked extremely pissed off and I knew why.
She looked at me and she said "well at least you're okay, but where the hell have you been these past three days?" I responded with "I've just been feeling sick lately, so I went off the radar." Shana looked at me from head to toe and then she replied with "that's fine, but you're trying to tell me that couldn't have taken one minute out of your day just to let me know that you're okay? I was worried sick about you." I took a deep breath and then I responded with "yeah well I don't really want to be talking to you right now." She looked at me frustratedly and then asked "what the hell did I do?" I looked back at her annoyed and I responded with "it's because you gave me bullshit dating advice, that I am where I am right now. It's because you told me to shoot my shot and let all my feelings out, that I've been sitting in my bed the past three days doing nothing but listening to sad music, crying my eyes out, and eating pizza because Dylan broke my heart on Monday. If I didn't listen to you and I didn't start saying how I felt, then none of this would've happened. If I didn't listen to you and I never went to shoot my shot then right now I would not be heartbroken. But yeah, I still have to see him tomorrow because I'm heading to New York for Zoe's graduation and obviously her brother is going to be there so I'm going to have to try and see him for a whole day without crying my eyes out and still act like everything is okay when nothing is okay. The last three days, I've told Zoe that I'm feeling sick so I'm not going to be texting much but the whole reason why I'm not texting her or you or anyone is because I'm damn heartbroken. And Dylan went on for years about how Angel broke his heart but then he just did the exact same thing to me." Shana just looked at me with her jaw dropped open and then asked "wait, so it's my fault that you said all that shit about Dylan at prom? Girl, I asked to express your emotions, not throw Dylan into the inferno and watch him turn to ash. And the only reason I asked you to shoot your shot was because I was fed up of seeing my best friend chase after Dylan like a puppy would chase after a bone. But I'm sorry, I was just trying to make you happy by finally trying to get you with the man that you have been drooling over for the past ten years." I nodded then I replied with "yeah but I never asked for your help. Just because you got your girlfriend Elizabeth by being ballsy, does not mean I'm going to get Dylan by being ballsy. Because look where ballsy got me, with no man, no best friend and a broken heart. So please Shana, I love you but I would really appreciate it if you stopped interfering with my dating life." Shana looked at then nodded then she responded with "wow, I guess now I know where your loyalties lie. I'm sorry for being a good friend, I won't try so hard next time." And then she walked away.
Seeing her walk into the distance made me realise that I had just lost both my best friends, in the space of a week. The only person I had left, was Zoe and if she ever found out about the Dylan thing, I knew I would lose her too.

It was still Thursday but it was around 11:30pm. I had just gotten to my hotel in New York after driving for eight hours. I was in my room, getting ready for bed when I heard someone burst through my door, I turned around and it was Dylan. I looked at him from head to toe and then I told myself to keep it together and I did but before I could say anything, he said " sorry, I thought this was the restroom. I mean clearly I'm here for the same reason as you." I looked at him then I responded with "yeah, we're both here for Zoe's graduation tomorrow. By the way, the restroom is down the hall on your second right." He smiled then replied with "oh um, thanks. Also, are you okay? I know we didn't leave Monday on a good note but I would love to be your friend." I wanted to say yes so badly but Shana was right, I kept on running back to Dylan like a puppy chasing a bone and I couldn't keep doing that, so I said "can I take some time? I mean, you low-key broke my heart." His face immediately changed and then he responded with "wait what? I broke your heart? I'm so sorry, that was never my intention. Especially after Angel, I would never want to break anybody's heart. I'm so sorry. Take all the time you need." I smiled at him then I responded with "thank you." He smiled back and then he closed the door and I went to bed.

It was Friday morning and I had just gotten out of the shower and I was wearing the Gucci top that Zoe got me for my birthday last year and black jeans. I was just getting ready to leave when I heard a knock on my door, so I opened it and it was Dylan. He walked in and then he said "look I just need to say this because I spent almost all night twisting and turning and I've gotten literally zero sleep and I may be running on five cups of coffee but I know exactly what I'm saying. I love you and I realised how much of an idiot I've been letting go of the one good thing left in my life, because I was scared you were too much like my ex-girlfriend but then I realised you're nothing like her. And I told you that on Monday but I still let you go and I shouldn't have but I love you and I want to be with you." I was left absolutely speechless. I didn't know whether I wanted to kiss him or slap him. That took me by surprise. But for once, Shana's advice was right, I had to take the opportunity when I had it and I have the opportunity to kiss him right now and that's what I did. I ran up to him and kissed him, he didn't push me away and both of us were sober this time. So yeah, I guess sometimes it's good to be ballsy. Then I pushed him back and I said "we can talk about this later but for now, we need to get to Zoe's graduation ceremony." He nodded and then both of us went to the ceremony.

After the ceremony, it was time for the principal of Zoe's university to announce the designer of the year award.
That's when he opened the letter and he said "and the designer of the year award goes to.... ZOE CAMSHAFT!!!" Me and Dylan were so proud of her. She deserved that award and I couldn't think of a better person for it to go to.
She got up on stage, collected her award and then she took the microphone to make a speech and she said "good afternoon class of 2020. We did it, we graduated and some of us had to work so hard to get where we are today and some of us didn't, but it doesn't matter how you got here, the point is that your here. And I was going to make some long speech about how it's all about the people you love but it's not because sometimes even the people that you love can betray you and I had to scrap my original speech because so much changed between when I first wrote it and now. two people who I loved betrayed me, so I can't stand here and make a whole speech praising them. But yeah, that's really all I have to say. Life is hard but we get through it and we've come this far, so we can get a lot further. So, class of 2020, thank you for voting for me and good luck in the future." Zoe then handed the microphone back to the principal and she walked off the stage. I could tell something was bothering her but I had no clue what it was.

Me and Dylan had just gotten back to the hotel and and two minutes after we got there, Zoe walked in too, so I asked her "hey Zo, what was that at graduation about?" Zoe smiled at me then she replied with "oh sorry, just imagining you two swallowing each other's tongues, put me off." Me and Dylan looked at each other and then he asked "wait, you were there?" Zoe nodded and then she responded with "yeah, I was here to give you guys a ride and then I thought we could go and celebrate after but clearly you two had plans of your own." I nodded and then I said "Zoe, it's not you think, it...."
She interrupted me by saying "I don't care about your petty excuses. We have twelve rules on girl code and you broke the most important one. I have nothing to say to you, either of you. I'm done, you two can head back to Ohio because I don't see what business you have doing here, because it's definitely is not with me." And then she just walked away.
I felt like I could never win because for every friend I gained, I lost another one in return. First I lost Dylan and then I lost Shana, but then I gained Dylan back and I lost Zoe. And nothing hurts more than losing a best friend, that you've had for twelve years.