The half-breeds|Destiel & Sabriel

chapter 14

* SELF HARM WARNING*
~Cass' POV~

    Having fixed that problem, I go back to my room, and try to sleep.. But I cant. I lay on my bed and wait for the time to pass. Its 3 am now. I sigh then get up since I know I wont be going back to sleep.

    After awhile, I decide to get up and go check on everyone. I first go and check on Lucifer and Michael.

    I find them asleep and cuddling on the couch. I snap a picture before sneaking away to go to Sam and Gabriel.

    I find them in a similar situation, as Gabriel is in his animal form asleep on Sam, and Sam is holding him and cuddling him.  I once again snap a picture and then silently go to Dean's room.

    I find Dean tossing and turning, crying and whimpering. Unlike everyone else who were peaceful. Instantly, I go to him and gently pick him up, laying down with him. Pretty soon after, he calms down and cuddles me. I let him, figuring it might keep him calm, and i cover us up with his blanket. I fall asleep soon after.

~Dean's POV~

    I wake up next to Cass. I feel my face heat up, and I try and get away, but he tightens his grip, not letting me go. I attempt again, but he still doesn't let go. This continues for about an hour until Cass wakes up. "C-Cass p-personal space" I manage to say. Cass lets go of me. "Sorry Dean. You were having a nightmare, so i was keeping it away." He states, answering my question before I could ask. "O-oh thanks." I reply as I feel my face heat up more and I get up and rush to the bathroom.

    I look at myself in the mirror. "I-Its just that were half animal now right? Thats why its different when im around him. Yeah that has to be it." I tell myself, not even slightly believing myself. I don't like him. Im straight. Right? Ugh. I walk out of the bathroom and not paying attention i run straight into cass, knocking us both down, and me landing ontop of him.

    "D-dean?" Cass stuttered out. God that voice. My mind was running too quickly to process anything. I felt myself blush hard. "S-sorry cass" i manage to say, then i quickly get off. Looking up to see Sam in the doorway. "Dont say a damn thing Sammy." I get up and walk past him, and i go to the kitchen. 'What the hell is happening?' i think as i grab a beer. "I cant take this ughhh"

    As i drink what is probably an excessive amount of beer and other alchohol, i start to feel tipsy, and all i can think about is Cass. His smell, his touch, his face, his hair, his blue eyes always confused, his gentleness, his innocence. I needed it all. Whether it was just because we were animals i needed him. As these thoughts went through my head so did bad ones. Like, he probably doesn't want me, and he doesn't need me. These thoughts quickly break my drunken self down, until im sitting in the corner crying and drinking.

    After a few minutes, i pick myself up and stumble out of the kitchen, headed to my room, but at some point i lose balance and fall onto someone. I cant move and ...that smell... the smell i needed. I bury my face into cass' neck breathing his scent in. "Casss~ *hic* you smell so *hic* goodd~" i wrap myself around the warm, smaller male under me. "D-dean. Your b-" I black out before he can finish.

*SELF HARM IS MENTIONED IN THE NEXT PARAGRAPH*

    I wake up later with Cass on top of me. "Dean. Why were your wrists bleeding?" There is concern in his voice. "Did someone hurt you?" I look at my wrists, which are clean and healed. "Im fine cass. I probably just fell or something." "Dean. Your lying. What happened?" He says, getting more serious. I sigh. "I probably did it to myself while drunk." After i say this he pulls me into a hug. That scent. It consumes me again. "Don't do that again." His voice is stern but gentle and caring.

*SELF HARM IS OVER*

"H-hey cass. Who changed my clothes?" I stutter out, as i realized i had clean clothes on. "I did. You threw up on yourself and you were covered in sweat." My face turns bright red as he says that. He changed my clothes. My cru- best friend changed my clothes. "Dean? Dean are you alright?" I snap out of it. "Y-yeah uh cass next time just leave me in dirty clothes." I say. "Dean im not going to leave you in dirty clothes."

~Cass' pov~

    As I argue with Dean about his clothes, Bobby's words echo through my head. To shut Dean up I listen to Bobby and I kiss Dean. To my surprise he kisses back. We kiss until we are out of air, then we lay next to each other and i cover us up. We both end up asleep.