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Still - Chapter 13

The next day, I got packed and got on the tourbus around 8:00 A.M.  since we are going to Scotland. Unfortunately, I had to ride Ashton's bus. I sat down on the couch and just looked out the window listening to music. About halfway through the ride Lynn came up to me.

"Hey" She said.

"Hey" I said

"Are you okay?"

"Yes" I lie.

"Okay. Well if you need anything tell me."

I give her a weak smile and she heads back towards Luke's bunk.  I feel broken. I got off the couch and went to my bunk. A little while later, Calum came thruogh the curtain.

"Hey" He said.

"Can I help you?" I said a little too rudely.

"Do you want anything to eat?"

"I'm good, thanks Cal''

"No problem, Bell, we're all here for you"

"Thanks"

He left. He was right,almost. Everyone was here for me, except Ashton, obviously.  Then Ashton came thruogh.

"Can I come in?" He asked.

"Um....yeah" I said hesitantly.

"Bella I know you hate me and i hate me too, and i'm sorry that I kissed her and that I was a jerk. I'm so sorry, ok? I love you, Bella and only you. I'm the most stupid person I know and I understand that you will never want to trust me again and-"

Then I don't what I was thinking. I cut him off. I kissed him. He was as suprised as I was but he kissed me back. I pulled apart.

"Sorry" I mumbled. Then I walked out. Luckily the bus was at a stop to get gas so I  could get some fresh air. I took a deep breath.  What just happend? I didn't have much time to think because we had to get back on the road.

I went back on the bus and got a glass of water. Soon we arrived at the forum. Alot of people were crowding the backstage area so I wandered around a bit. I found a staircase that led to the roof. The view was amazing.

"Hey" I heard a way too familier voice. Ashton walked over beside me on the railing.

"Hey. Shouldn't you be at sound check?"

"Probably" He smiled.

"The view here is beautiful" I said.

"Yeah"

"Look, Ashton about earlier-"

"It's okay. I have to go now or the others will be really mad."

"Bye"

Then he left. Maybe I do still love him.  But what if a give him a second, no third, chance and he just cheats on me again? What if he doesn't want another chance? What if he hates me? What if I'm running out of what ifs?

I walked down to the stage to watch the performance. The 5sos guys were standing about to go on stage i know how nervous Ashton gets before he performs but today he looks extremely nervous. He had five seconds till he had to get on stage. I walked over to him, kissed his cheek and said "You'll do fine" Then he went on stage.

Once the guys were making there way off stage me and Lynn got back in the tourbus to go to Ireland. The guys came, showered and changed. I was sitting on my bunk and Ashton sat down on my bunk. We sat there in our own thoughts, thinking. I knew he was looking at me.

"What are we?" I asked.

"What do you want us to be?"He said.

"I think, that I want to be friends, for now"

"Then were friends."

I still needed to tell Ashton something. I was meaning to tell him before we went to the club that night. He dosen't know. I should've told him about my brother, before he's gone.

Oooohhhh. Cliffhanger. Lol. I'm weird. - Grace