beastly °renjun

nine

hyejin

"let's do this again, in another life" he said as he pulled my hand and pierced something on his side. my eyes widen as his eyes did too, i breathed heavily as i felt my hand getting wet. my whole body was shaking knowing what he just did. i forced myself to sit up, i looked at him and held his face with my other hand, "renjun" i called  him, panicking, as tears formed "stop joking, i dont like it- it doesn't suit you, c'mon man" i said bitterly and nervously chuckling, "RENJUN" i raised my voice as tears non-stopped fell to my cheeks, "hyejin" he weakly called out making me, startled, i leaned in to hear hin clearly "let's meet again, no matter what" he said, smiling at me. i couldn't help but sob, "dont cry, it makes me wanna stay with you" he said, weakly chuckling "stop joking, i told you it doesn't suit you" i scolded, sobbing.

he chuckled "babe" he called out, surprising me. i looked at him surprised, "i wont let the gods reincarnate me while you're still alive and well at hell" he joked, laughing weakly "i'll wait for you- maybe in hell? or heaven? i dont know- but anywhere will be fine if you'll be there" he said making me sob more "stop crying" he said again, tears falling from his eyes "say that to yourself mister" i said, sniffing. he chuckled bitterly "i reserved this last five words for my special someone before i die- i never thought that my someone special will be a demon- an actual one" he joked, i couldn't talk anymore as i was choking with my sobs, i couldnt even look at him "babe" he called out, cupping my face and turning it to face him.

"what? WHAT? i hate you- i told you i won't let you die on my hands but you still- i hate you so much and your stubborn head, I HATE YOU SO MUCH-" he let my face go and brushed his finger tips on my hair as he slowly pulled me closer, closing the gap between us completely. still sobbing, we enjoyed the last kiss we shared. my tears fell to his eyes, in between the kiss, he smiled. pushing me off a little, he cupped my face again, "i love you so much" he said before closing his eyes. his hand fell on the empty space beside him.

i breathed more heavily, "renjun- babe- renjun? baby please dont- dont please renjun no- NO BABE PLEASE NO. I CANT PLEASE. PLEASE RENJUN OPEN YOUR EYES BABE PLEASE" i sobbed took him in my arms, i screamed "FUCKING HELL, I SO FUCKING HATE EVERYONE- WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ALL TAKING EVERYONE FROM ME? WHY DOES EVERYONE I LOVE HAVE TO TO FUCKING DIE IN MY FUCKING ARMS? I SO FUCKING HATE YOU ALL" i loked back to renjun "babe please" i said, but still no response "okay then, let's stick with your plan- let's meet again, no matter what. i love you, i so fucking love you, huang renjun. i'm so sorry we had to end up like this, i really am. i'll do everything just to be with you again, anything, babe, anything" i kissed his forehead,

"thank you, i'm sorry, i love you, my first and last"