Be Mine (Will Be Continued)

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 6|HIS PROMISE

AVA

I shifted as the cold breeze played with my hair, giving me a cold shiver. I didn't care for how long I was standing there. I looked up at the sky. The moon was playing hide and sick behind the clouds. Felt like the stars were doing competition by showing who can be the most beautiful one. That melted my heart. I thought how easily even little things make my heart melt. Sighing I walked towards the living room.

Taking a walk in the big beautiful garden soothes my ached soul. Lonliness has became very close friend of mine.

In this house, since I came, I felt like I'm an outsider. I never was welcomed. As if I was a burden. The looks Jungkook used to give me, everytime he saw me made my heart clench in tight knot. Everytime, the knot gets tighter. And he never failed to proof his point. He didn't break his promise. I realized how much he meant every single word when he said he was going to hate me more and more every passing time.

I have stopped showing my face when he is home. I didn't want to break his heart anymore. He was already broken. Broken because he was forced to marry me. Broken because his one and only love Stella wasn't very prepared to listen to him.

2 days after our marriage, the night Jungkook came home all drunk. I got scared and tried to help him out but he jerked me away like I was something very disgusting. That's the night when he broke down in front of me because Stella broke up with him and was moving to Italy. That's the first time I saw him crying. He was so broken. He needed someone beside him to calm him down but he surely didnt need me.

I was so fool when I was thinking that maybe I could try to work on this relationship no matter how much he hated me. When I saw my parents smiling face, I knew I couldn't go back anymore. I couldn't break their hearts. I had to stay and try to work in the relationship. But that night broke all my hopes. I realized no matter how much I tried, I couldn't get Jungkook's heart. Stella left surely, but she didn't give back the heart she took from Jungkook. The way Jungkook treated me, just made me realize every second that I was no one to even try to take it back.

He leaves before I get up from my bed. And he returns when I was already in bed though we live in separate rooms. But I never slept, not before knowing Jungkook was home safe. He used to have him meal outside. I wonder if he really took care of himself or not. No matter how much he hated me, I didn't want him to overwork himself.

I was so lonely in that house. All day I used to roam around the house like a free lonely bird. No one cared about my presence. No one likes my existence, except for the maid who was working here for years. I used to talk to her whenever I felt lonely

It's been 3 months since then. Since our marriage. I knew I couldn't tell my parents what's going on with me. I couldn't tell Jungkook how bad I felt when he used to treat me like garbage. I wanted to scream in his ears that I was a human being too and I had feelings too.

The treatment that I never ever asked from him was making me weaker everyday. He barely talked to me. Actually he never talked to me. Only that night when he cried over Stella leaving him. I wanted to talk to him. Tell him not to treat me that way. Tell him that if not couple, then at least we could be friends. I didn't want to see his cold side. That was making my heart ache so badly. Slowly his actions were toring my heart apart. I used cry myself to bed whenever I thought about those days when I used to wait for him to arrive at the party so that I could take a little glance of him. So that I could look at him to memorize all his beautiful features.

It made my heart cry when I thought he was never going to look at me the way I looked at him. He was never going to feel that way. He was never going to accept me as his wife.

Then why didn't I give up? I knew he was never going to give his heart to me. Then why didn't I stop already? Even though I was tired, why did I feel like I could fight more? The emotions, all those feeling were eating me out alive. I still wanted to try when he clearly said I could never be his.
His actions clearly showed his hatred towards me.

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