Watch Me Unwind

Chapter 08

KAIDENCE POV

Pag uwi ko ng bahay sinalubong agad ako nila mommy. Nalaman nila yung gulong kanina ko lang nagawa. Ngayon ko nga lang naalala, nawala sa isip ko kanina.

"Pinatawag kami ng dean niyo kaidence! Kelan ka ba mag tatanda!" Sigaw ni daddy.

"Kelan ka titigil sa pag rerebelde mo? kelan mo kami irerespeto? kelan ka magtitino kaidence?!" Si mommy.

"Hindi kami nag t-trabaho ng sobra para maging ganito ka! Hindi ka namin pinag aral para mag rebelde at mawalan ng respeto!"

Hearing those hurtful words, from your parents breaks me into pieces. They're the people i am expecting to understand me. I am not a vocal person. I may be strong, but i have my weakness and limitations. I can handle the situation but i get tired understanding the reasons.

I smiled bitterly while my tears falling down my cheeks. I'm hurt. And i wish i could tell them how much i'm hurting right now. I wish i could tell them my problems. I wiped my tears and look at them without any emotion.

"I'm tired. Ngayon alam niyo na, kailangan niyong pumunta. Goodnight" I stop my self not to cry infront of them.

I pretend that its okay, but its not. I pretend to be okay, but i'm not. I wear a fake smile but deep inside i wanted to cry.

Sometimes i ask my self why do i have to feel this? I feel so jealous everytime i saw a family who are happy with each other, going out together, and doesn't care about other people may think to them. We may have a lot of money but we're not happy. I can get what i want but i'm not contented of what i'm having. I have complete family, but i feel alone. Just myself. I just want love and attention.

I cried all night. I spend the rest of the night crying. Thinking what will happen the next day, and the following days.

T H E N E X T D A Y

I woke up early. And start my day. I took a shower and start fixing my self. I cover up my eyebags with concealer.

Bumaba na ko at pumunta na sa kotse para pumasok. Nag drive ako papuntang school. I text nayla & snow to come early. I sighed.

Lilitisin kana kai, handa kana ba?

Napangiti ako sa naiisip ko. "Kung di lang kita kilala iisipin kong baliw ka. Ngumi-ngiti ka kase mag isa"

Napatingin naman ako sa nagsalita. "Why are you here?" Tanong ko kay kobe.

"Mhmm.. para makita ka? hahahaha! joke!"

Napairap ako sa kalokohan niya.

"I'm just here, my ears are ready." Nakangiti niyang sabi habang nakatingin sakin.

"Wala naman akong sasabihin."

"Hindi ka lang nagsasalita, pero andaming sinasabi ng mga mata mo. Ang lungkot, sobrang lungkot."

"Tsh, kung ano ano sinasabi mo. Umalis kana."

"Babalik ako mamaya, sasamahan ka namin nila snow sa paglilitis sayo. hahaha!"

Napatungo naman ako atsaka tumawa ng mahina. Atsaka tumingin ulit sakanya. "Kahit wag na, hindi ka naman kailangan 'don."

"Awts! I hurt, very hurt!" he pouted his lips. And act like he was really hurt.

"Tss. Ang korni mo! Umalis kana nga! chupi!"

Tumawa siya. "Okay fine, ang aga aga sungit mo. Bye bye see you later! Ngiti kana mas maganda ka kapag naka ngiti" Pahabol niya pa.