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I bet this time of night you're still up
I bet you're tired from a long hard week
I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me
It was a cold night in Camp Jupiter. Reyna stood up to get some coffee from the kitchen. Sleepless nights had been happening very often and paperwork never seem to decrease. After making a cup, she went to take a seat beside the window. Looking at the silent streets outside, Jason unintentionally entered her tired mind.
She vaguely remember moments like this when Jason was still working alongside her. He would stay up late just so he can help Reyna, though he never really does help. Reyna doesn't mind it though because him being there is already enough for her and she knows how much he goes through every week for the sake of the camp. He would sit at very same seat and stare at the starry night. They never notice each other stealing glances every now and then.
But those moments are over now. And he doesn't know how much she's willing to pay just to relive them and have him by her side like all those times before.
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I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
Cause each time you reach out there is no reply
I bet it never ever occurred to you
That I can't say hello to you and risk another goodbye
Reyna thinks that there is a great possibility that she will go deaf very soon. Because every time she returns home, the phone will be either ringing or will have messages waiting. All from one person.
A person named Jason.
Messages stating that they should grab hot chocolate or maybe take a stroll in New Rome so they could catch up. But she never replies because she can't risk it. Just can't. Knowing that every time she chooses to do it, it will only result into heartbreaks and screaming and her breaking down and that Jason can't do anything to cure it.
Because wounds and scars will always be there. They will never be perfect, no matter how much you try.
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And I just wanna tell you it takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you and I hope you know that
Every time I don't I Almost Do,
I Almost Do
Although she never replies, Jason doesn't know how much Reyna is dying to just speak to him like old times. He wonders why Reyna hates him and why she doesn't return his calls. Every time his in Camp Jupiter, the feeling to visit her and just ask her what's wrong is huge. But he never does.
Because he's afraid of what she will say. Of what she thinks about him. He's afraid that the girl he knew and grew up alongside wouldn't be the same anymore. But he's more afraid that the reason she's changed is because of him. His fault. And he knows that he will never be able to bear the guilt.
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Oh, we made quite a mess baby
It's probably better off this way
And I confess baby
In my dreams you're touching my face
And asking me if I wanna try again with you
And I Almost Do
They don't know the chaos they are in. The indecisiveness happening in them. The guilt, fear, pain eating them both alive. They choose to ignore it thinking that it's in the past. Thinking that its better off this way.
But the past doesn't heal itself and the destruction is still there. Rotting and attacking them when they least expect it. In their sleep, inside their dreams. Hidden longing of each other. But they refuse to admit it because that's the way it is.
They are just irreparably broken.
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I bet this time of night you're still up
I bet you're tired from a long hard week
I bet you're sitting in you're chair by the window looking out at the city
And I hope sometimes you wonder about me
And how coincidence just manage to put them in the same position. Up late at night, drinking coffee beside the window. Both tired from different things. Looking out at the city and staring on how lovely the night is especially with the bright moon and the twinkling stars. Exactly thinking the same thing: Hoping that sometimes they're wondering about each other too.
Because that hope is enough to get them through the cold and miserable night.
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almost lover | jeyna
Fanfiction[FANFICTION/ SONG-FIC] hands that never touch. lips that never meet. the almost lovers, never to be. the couple who might have been, given time... ... disclaimer: i do not own the characters nor the immersive world of demigods. they belo...
