Snow || Myg ff ✔

~9~

⚠️TW: these episodes include some graphic imagery and mentions of self harm, suicide, and eating disorders so read with caution.
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I ran as fast as I could. 

I could feel my breath speed up and my legs start to hurt as I pushed forward, but I didn't care.

She was in danger, and I had to save her.

I was rapidly loosing energy, along with the hope of making it in time, when I saw her building in the distance.

I sped up and reached it. I could see the outline of an arm reaching towards the sky.

Y/n!

I ran as fast as I my legs could go, I tried to go in the elevator. 

'Out of service."

Great, the day I most needed it! I ran up the first set of stairs. Then the next. And the next. Until finally. I got to the rooftop. I burst the door open and as I did, I saw her body fall.

"Y/n!"

She was right on the edge, an inch further and she wouldn't have made it. I pulled her into my lap. "Y/n! Wake up!" She was out; no sound, no movement. 

I slipped my hand under her legs and torso and picked her up. 

Just then, two figures appeared at the door. 

"Y/n!" Jin ran up to us, panting. The other guy soon followed.

"She's passed out, we have to take her to a hospital!" I said, and for the first time in my life, I felt scared.

Jin nodded. 

"Okay, let's hurry up then, I'll drive." We went back down the stairs.

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I sat on the floor as we waited. 

'I'm such a dumbass. I couldn't even be there in time to help her, I'm so worthless.'

I felt tears run down my face.

'Maybe if I had told her what I wanted instead of acting like a complete moron, this wouldn't be happening. Ugh, if I had just done something, anything different-!'

A cool voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I looked up.

"Are any of you relatives of Miss Kim Y/n?" the doctor asked. 

"Um no... we're her f-friends." Jin answered. 

"Do you know where I can contact her parents or guardian?" the doctor asked one more time, looking through his paperwork.

"They died... her..." Jin swallowed. "her parents died when she was little so her brother took care of her." Jin said, looking down. I remembered how cheerful her brother used to be, we would all hang out and he would always be nice to all of us. Making cookies and looking out for us.

"Oh, is that right? Then do you know where I can contact her brother?" 

"He... also died." Jin said, sighing.

"But how is she? What happened to her? Is she gonna make it?" I said as I got up, scared of what he was going to answer.

The doctor gulped. 

"Right... um.... Miss Kim was diagnosed with depression and bipolar disorder before. She had some prescriptions she was told to take but when we did some lab tests on her, we noticed the drugs weren't in her system... we believe they haven't been for some time. She was also rather weak and some tests showed that she had also recently developed anorexia... but it was left untreated. It was developed quite recently actually, and her body shows signs she'd been starving herself for at least 48 hours... which then caused her to pass out," he said. "Her body was really weak and could not operate on it's own, maybe if you'd brought her in earlier, we could have done something. But we couldn't, we had to let her go..." 

My breath hitched and I felt tears build up. 

"What... no... you're lying aren't you?" Tears fell as I struggled to believe this was true.

The doctor fidgeted uncomfortably, looking from side to side. 

"You're lying! She can't be dead! Not like this! Do something! You're a doctor aren't you!" I sobbed as I screamed and cried uncontrollably.

"Yoongi..." I heard Jin's voice say from behind me. I turned around and he was looking down, crying.

He looked up and almost whispering, he said: "She's gone..."

She's gone...?

She's gone?

She's gone.

"No. No, this can't be happening, why? Why her? Why does she have to be gone?! Why does it-!" I sank down against the wall as I cried out, whispering to myself. "Why does it have to be her..." 

 "Can we... see her? One last time?" Jin says to the doctor. 

I listen to the rest of the conversation. I didn't want to see her. I didn't want to see her body laying there, lifeless. I didn't want that, I didn't want to believe she was gone. I didn't want to.

Y/n... I'm so sorry. I was so stupid... I didn't even get to apologize. I didn't even get a chance to talk to you properly. I'm so sorry. I didn't even get to tell you...

I cried. 

To tell you I loved you. 

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There's one more chapter after this and then it's done. I hope you enjoyed it. ^w^

-L.

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