I let myself get used to you
always being there when I look back
You became my comfort zone
knowing well that I'm more than that to you
I couldn't let you go, however
I wanted you by my side
for as long as the universe could allow
I don't mind that you give me extra attention
What I mind is when you don't
I hate myself for hating
the way you slowly slipped off my grip
I hate myself for not wanting
to let you go
I hate myself for getting used to you
the way you once were to me
but things are different now
and I hate that I hate it
July 8, 2020
