adore you (abandoned)

chapter 5

A month later (April 2020)

"Caitlin! Over here please!"

I turned to the direction where the voice comes from. I stopped to smile and struck a pose showing my backless dress with intricate gems glitter the frame of my back. With that I heard the continuous shutter of the medias' cameras.

I'm wearing an off-shoulder fitted long red wine mermaid cut dress with a (not so dangerously high) slit.

I cautiously continued walking down the carpet, trying not to stumbled and be nauseous from the blinding lights from the cameras flash.

No matter how many times I'm in front of a camera, I sometimes get flustered and shy so easily. But I somehow manage to channel the inner fierce in me.

Even if the movie's climax makes you move at the edge of your seat, I found myself not intrested and have my mind someplace else. I tried not to be bother by what happened a while ago and paid attention to the movie, but the thought of him simply won't go away.

5 hours ago

As my hairstylist, works on her magic, my phone vibrates at my vanity and flash a stupid, annoying, goofy, cute picture of Sean.

Bea, my hairstylist, looks at me through the mirror with a concerned look.

"It's okay Bea. He'll thinks I'm busy." I smiled at her with a look of 'I'm fine.'

I haven't talked to Sean for almost a month. When I mean talk, I mean having our regular face time calls. I still send him texts but it's the same ones everyday for a month.

'Sorry my phone died.'

'Sorry in a meeting.'

or the most frequent one: 'Sorry been busy.'

On the way to venue, I check my phone to find 8 missed calls and 3 unread messages from Sean.

unacceptable

hey ricebowl!

good luck :)

i love you. <3

I feel my heart flutters and warms from Sean's text. There's a sudden sadness and guilt that hit me. He still able to had this effect on me. The effect that I miss him every single day. I finalized my decision that would be the best for the both of us.

September 2021

It's been a long day. A day of the usual: photoshoots, interviews, meetings, filming, and repeat.

I open the door to be greeted by my dogs and the love of my life in the arms of my best friend.

"Hey Adore!" I cooed while I placed my bag at the entryway table, removed my Adidas slides, and walked in.

All the running, and walking left and right surely made my feet swollen from my 3 in. black high heels long place in my car.

I willingly accept her in my arms as she reach out for me.

"I'm very sorry, I know it's way past her bed time, but it seems she's waiting for you."

"It's okay Bails. If anything, I should be the one who's saying sorry. You literally postponed your shoot."

"Pfft... Nah. No worries. Anything for my goddaughter really."

I give her an unimpressed look.