Be His Light

All Alone

Jeff's P.O.V.
She sat in her room, headphones on, hunched over her drawing pad. I saw the tears fall down her cheeks, watched as she sliced her wrists. I wanted to comfort her, but I was a killer, I was supposed to revel in pain.....but seeing her pain....hurt me as well. I didn't like this pain in my chest, this feeling of being ripped apart, of shattering inside. I wanted to climb into her window and make it better, but I knew I had gone too far....she would never take me back after what I said....
"Jeff....." Slender's tentacle touched my shoulder. I shook him off with a growl.
"What, Slender?" I grumbled, not taking my eyes off of her.
"Let her be. She needs to be away from you for a while, to cool down. You both said some hurtful things...."
"Slender, you don't know anything! Im a killer she wouldn't want me anyways! I don't know why I even bothered letting myself fall in love! It always ends badly......im always alone in the end.....I can never keep anything worth having....." I put my face in my hands and began to cry....silent, hot, fat tears that burned their way down my cheeks and into the crevasses i created in my cheeks. It burned and i welcomed the pain, just wanting her back....just wanting her in my arms.....just wanting her lips under mine once again.
She hated me now....she had to. I was an ass, I didn't support her like someone that loved her should. I needed to apologize...but not now. I would have to arrange something, make it special, make her want me back somehow....and never break her heart again. Keep her close and never let her go......
Always and Forever.....