He Cheated Part Two

Letter

        Dear Lisa, I love you and the kids so much, but I don't know how to be a good husband or father. My kids rarly know me and you don't either. I should have told you everything or tried to make our life and sex more interesting. This is the real me. I love sex, I can't just settled with one person though it gets boring after a while and it's not your fault it has Nothing at all to do with you. It's me, I can't help it. I am so sorry for putting my hands on you. I am also sorry for cheating I have been with 8 women since we have been married and 3 before we were married. I thought that once we got married I wouldn't cheat and we could just have sex all the time but I wanted and needed that excitment of it all. I love you so much and divorce isn't never going to happen. You can have everything. I have another bank account I never told you because you would want to check it and I used it to take other women out. There is about $290,000 in there. Then I have another account with $177,450 and our account. Not sure how much is there you are the one who handles that, but here is all the documents you need and all the papers you need I signed everything over to you anyways. Take it all Just know I am sorry and love you. Tell my kids I love them.                                                       Love Your husband,                                                                                                                                        Silas

I got chills. I look over and push him and say Silas get up, Silas Silas SILAS!!!!!! Cathy and James runs in the house Silas is dead. I drop to the floor I see a bottle of the pain pills he was talking about it was on the floor. His Scotch was on the table the bottle almost gone. He was cold and no heart beat. I start shaking Cathy is on the phone with 911. It doesn't take no time I can hear them pull up. They rush in and I am sitting there beside him. Yes, we were fighting, still that is the father of my kids. The police talk to me for a few and they need the note Silas left. They put the Note, the bottle and pill bottle in this bag. They soon take Silas out. I sit in my living room not knowing what to think. I don't talk for a while I walk in the kitchen to smoke again and Jim and Matt pull up Silas works with both of them. I tell him about Silas about the fight about finding him. Jim said " Lisa I am so sorry. Silas hasn't been acting right for about a month now we know." I can't believe it. He is gone just like that. After all we just went through. Yes most likely would have got a divorce, but I still loved him in my heart. How am I going to tell the kids? Now what do I do? I am lost for words